bunch of questions that are on my mind ( Read more... )

last night i couldnt sleep much...all i kept getting was flash backs before this whole love fest trying to ask this one chick out. but i just kept thinking about it and it was really bothering me and i then i my flash backs got worse and i started thinking about my bad memories and shit and then one thing let to another and i was thinking about ( Read more... )

cant even make her happy any more.....i just make things worse ( Read more... )

im not my self....im afraid of going on the computer and talking to my girl friend :( i felt so strang e going on the computer and going on AIM ( Read more... )

Yea..i know...most of my journal entrey's are usually depressing and messed up but thats my life...fucken messed up ( Read more... )

if i could get rid of one tihng in my life to make every one happy is my attitude on my life and how i think every one likes to piss me off ( Read more... )

i have problems and most of my problems came from my past and i cant help but stay quite. my problem started in middle school...i was just constently abused...even untill today i still do...phsically and emotionally. im just afraid to say whats on my mind..im too freaken paranoid i always think im too afraid of what they might say or do that i will ( Read more... )

ok...this is gonna be a long one cuz alot of stuff happend...well i stayed home on moday....didnt feel good still..then tuersday and wensday was crappy as hell cuz my throught was killing me..i just wanted to die...thursday i started feeling better and i had to leave school early to get my braces removed (thank u freaken god!!) then i got the rest ( Read more... )

i havent had a good night sleep in days. my whole weekend was filled with guilt and i just wana do sometihng to get rid of it. my head has been going through hell, migrains that hurt like fuck!. heat flashes on and off, and i have a sore throught. last night i felt like i was gonna get better but i couldnt sleep, im tired as hell and i wana get ( Read more... )

idk what i should say or do with olivia. shes every tihng to me...i wana help her with any thing and every thing.every time somethings wrong i just wana do sometihng to help her but its way out of my reach cuz what ever problem it was, already happened in the past and i cant do any thing about it. i feel like im just useless to her...the only thing ( Read more... )