Happiness doesnt last
Yea..i know...most of my journal entrey's are usually depressing and messed up but thats my life...fucken messed up
i was up last night thinking of suicide.....
i wasnt thinking it before when i was off the computer playing videogames and then my girlfriend calls me. i was just in my own little world....happy...
when i got back on....arguments left and right(wasnt between me her though...thanx god) but i still had didnt like the fact that she wasnt defending her self like she normally does....
she went to bed...with out a love u....untill i was already sleeping and she text me with a love u...
i thought that she was gonna kill her self and i almost started to cry.....i just wanted to die...then i was thinking of suicide for another 10 minutes then i passed out.
im afraid to go back online at night now....
i was up last night thinking of suicide.....
i wasnt thinking it before when i was off the computer playing videogames and then my girlfriend calls me. i was just in my own little world....happy...
when i got back on....arguments left and right(wasnt between me her though...thanx god) but i still had didnt like the fact that she wasnt defending her self like she normally does....
she went to bed...with out a love u....untill i was already sleeping and she text me with a love u...
i thought that she was gonna kill her self and i almost started to cry.....i just wanted to die...then i was thinking of suicide for another 10 minutes then i passed out.
im afraid to go back online at night now....