Last night
last night i couldnt sleep much...all i kept getting was flash backs before this whole love fest trying to ask this one chick out. but i just kept thinking about it and it was really bothering me and i then i my flash backs got worse and i started thinking about my bad memories and shit and then one thing let to another and i was thinking about suicide. it was like i had some sort of depression in my sleep. then i think around 12:30ish i went to sleep and my dream was weird too. for some reason in some of my dreams alesha was in it...even if it was only for 5 seconds....she was still in my dreams. idk....my dreams are telling me something but i dont know what the hell it is. i kept thinking about it all morning. idk my head is so fucked up in every way possible. but ill deal with that when i get the chance. even if she still does act snooty and pissed off at me still in my dreams...she is just there...we dont even talk any more cuz im guessing its my fault but every one in H.C. wilcox that its not my fault or olivia's...or even kevin's for that matter. but w/e she choose not to be my friend any more and i guess that what she wants....i dont really care what she does with her life.