I don't know if understanding my feelings this well can be healthy.

a lot has happened since my last entry. a lot a lot a lot. mostly good, some bad, but im taking a writing class now and i want to get back in the habit of putting words together. i considered starting something fresh, trying out a new blogging interface but emmy made the point that my livejournal is the backstory to the life im living now; its the ( Read more... )

In a little over 2 hours, or a little over 1 hour, depending which time zone convention you're using, I'll be turning 20. Either way, I am in my final moments of being a teenager. I don't understand why turning 20 isn't really a big deal. I mean, yes, 21 is huge obviously, but 20 kind of gets swept to the side and ends up being the empty space ( Read more... )

and its like, hey, i know i just met you but i want to know more about you, i want to ask you questions, i want to hear your stories, your hopes, your dreams, i want to hear all about the ex-girlfriends and the hospital visits and the time you got arrested, i want to tell you my stories, my hopes, my dreams, all about the ex-boyfriends and the ( Read more... )

so here's the story ( Read more... )

i guess, just like the evolution of human contact when youre not face to face is really weird ( Read more... )

everything is a fucking mess.

humming like metal
iron tasting mouth
crystal lattice vertices
quiet afternoon naps
we all are
uninspired by inspiration
stubborn fingers, tongues
empty eyes opened
empty hearts closed
full mind wandering
out of nowhere
paved black road
broken glass stairwell
playing a game
with no rules
and breaking them
metal against metal

thinking really hard about the universe consistently blows my mind. i wish more people understood how fucking baller science is.

i just like cannot believe that that happened.
im suprised how neutral i feel about it.
but i think everything is gonna be okay.