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love
So many thoughts so little time ha! crazy day yesterday. it was amazing... she loved me and i felt it! i actually felt it. smiles and touching. caring and caressing. compliments and conversation. i felt important to her. first time i think since oregon. felt so good. sex was amazing, damn i missed her tongue. almost makes me wet just thinkin about ( Read more... ) -
family
family, i love them. love, theres that word again. my parents have shown me love. shouldnt i know what it is? true honest pure love. never ending unconditional love. unconditional love. unconditional. love. thats on my wishlist. could you imagine. unconditional anything? like a never ending embrace, no need for disloyalty. pure trust. no breaking ( Read more... ) -
the struggle of september
last night was seriously like the best sex ever... seriously like i think its topping the charts ha ha... but that could be cause i wanted it so bad. we went for hours. mmm so hot just thinkin about it. and then this mornin i felt her touching me when i was sleeping.... i love that. omggg its one of my biggest turn ons. morning
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the past
why would beth be dating that whale? we made fun of her. clubs. dancing... her? i dont understand. i dont care. just dont understand. atleast her x b4 me was pretty. this one is ugly. she must have a good personality. want to meet her. wonder if beth still has my beth and dee poster up in the house. i wonder if she will take it down when dan ( Read more... ) -
miss
i miss bear. dad showd me him on cam the other day. i remember the first night i took him home. i told him i would never leave him. he was so small and cute. his head was 10 times his body. foofy. i miss him. he was so affectionate. the perfect puppy. i wonder if he misses his mommy. i miss him. sooo much. my baby.
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light
i see the light!! the end of the tunnel maybe. does she want to work it out with me? she does i think. she cuddled with me last night. slept sooo good! thunderstorms are wonderful. playful yesterday. smiling. did i feel it yesterday?? yes!! playful! i can do that. i saw her smile come out yesterday. it was so good. i hope we grow now.
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eyes
her eyes they entrance me... staring is not an option. hypnotising me every day. why would she bring me here if she is in love with someone else? why cause my so much pain? its karma. because ive caused the same thing. exes not over me and keep coming back. causing their girlfriends pain. its karma. that bitch. keeping me from being happy. stuck ( Read more... ) -
cursed
What is love? do you think it a feeling, or is it something deeper. When we die, do you think its still there? In heaven they say that you only feel the good feelings, is that love. I have plenty of experiences that love is not only good but bad. Does everyone have there own true love? Is there more than 1 true love or can you have 2. How do you ( Read more... ) -
the real deal
me and audrey are talking again. she told me she was sorry for everything and said she wanted to try and make things work. things where going amazing for 2 days or so and then yesturday everything fell apart. i picked her up, and she said she was joining the southside gang and she will have to leave me again for 2 months to go to L.A.. we had ( Read more... ) -
letter to audrey (she recieved in october)
Dear Audrey,
I love you sooooo much! I'm so happy we are together, and have stuck it out this long. The first day we met, I knew you were the one for me. The first hello and the first goodbye we both knew. Do you remember that day babe? You were working and I liked Jon and then I saw u. and I knew that you were it for me. right then. I knew. Before ( Read more... )