family
family, i love them. love, theres that word again. my parents have shown me love. shouldnt i know what it is? true honest pure love. never ending unconditional love. unconditional love. unconditional. love. thats on my wishlist. could you imagine. unconditional anything? like a never ending embrace, no need for disloyalty. pure trust. no breaking promises. no reason for grudges. no fighting. no yelling. no demeaning. pure love. just being together. no wierd looks. just love. is this possible? i know it is. ive seen it. maybe not everyone gets it. maybe its only for special people. special? like people are walking around with sign above their heads... IM READY FOR LOVE!!! pick me!!! please love me... everyone wants love. she wants love. but not from me. should i leave? im never going to be anything but me. does she know this? does she know im never going to be the other woman. never. i dont want to. i want to be me. ive tried being other people my whole life. now i just want to be me. is that so hard. why cant she love me for me?
nothing more to say. until another day.