Raving missing salt. Thieving creepy control trip. Done. What horizon slips into dreams of hope with fatima. What gods accept me as new remembering my worth? Anyone? Inspiration lies in wait for me to stop and pray again. There it is, the road. Way off in the distance I must have lost it in the new moon night. Maybe age has no baring, only

so I think there's no one left on livejournal, they've all fled to myspace which is great cause I can pontificate here instead, and no one will read it! :D the stuff is strange. i'm living a strange half life in which love, reason, awe, and happiness have waned to non existence. breathe, walk, nod, smile, feed kids, sleep.....i need to run into ( Read more... )

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Rachel!

1. Over 46,000 pieces of Rachel float on every square mile of ocean!
2. There are roughly 10,000 man-made objects the size of Rachel orbiting the Earth.
3. There are more than two hundred different kinds of Rachel!
4. The word 'samba' means 'to rub Rachel'.
5. The only Englishman to become Rachel was Nicholas Breakspear, who was ( Read more... )

Why do doctors constantly defend the honor of tonsils as if you've spoken ill about Di to an Englishman? They are not useful when they turn against you. It's pretty obvious that pumping the frail children full of antibiotics is not furthering their immune system. Zap them OUT!!!!! ARG. In the 4 months I have been working here I have missed one ( Read more... )

I have pink eye in both eyes. Will whoever hates me please forgive me, please. Seriously. Ouch. I look possessed or maybe like I've been smoking or crying. I really need a hug. I mean REALLY need a hug. I realized today that I haven't had a real hug for over 7 months. Haven't had a cuddle in over a year. I have to consider a meaningless ( Read more... )

I applied for another job. Pray to whomever you will for me please! Yes, I love my job now. However, I'm overdrawn and live 40 miles away and get 20 miles per gallon. I'm to the point where I need charity. It's 30 degrees today and I don't own a coat. It's a sad day when you are 27 with two kids and still can't take care of yourself. I ( Read more... )

Okay so we all know I was oblivious, but is that such a bad place to be ( Read more... )

They got a little teary at the airport.....a little fussy for a few days......now they are acting fine and normal. As if they realize they had dreamed it would be so much better than it was. So did I. I thought everything would resolve itself. I thought I wouldn't cry at all. I thought......well we made some good progress. It's not unlike ( Read more... )

Well, we all survived. He leaves tomorrow in a complete state of denial. My wedding ring in his hand he's still convinced there's a chance things could work despite my constant protests to the opposite. I gained 15 pounds in 3 days. Stress eater anyone? Fiber and waterpill time. Ha. The girls will cry, I will breathe, Carol will calm, things ( Read more... )

Why am I so stupid?!!! Everytime he does this I drift further out to sea, further out of reach! There's a difference between making a mistake and always setting up for catastophies. I'll take care of it! Always harshly spoken, never true. I mention the cracks which we always slip through to prevent the common mistake only to be thwarted. Then ( Read more... )