Things have been so hard recently. Life has changed, friends are gone. It hurts so much to know how different things are now. I've tried to act as though its all okay, but its not. I was so happy with the way things were and I'm happy with the way that some parts of my life now, yet I feel guilty. I'm happy being here with Kel and Ash, truly ( Read more... )

Okay, I just need to make a correction. Last night's journal made it sound like I still want J. I don't. Not in the least. I don't even miss being around him at all really. I thought I would, but I don't. I think that I just had a lot of stuff on my mind and he popped into it because he played such a major role in the last few months of my ( Read more... )

How can you be over someone one day and the next day, you can't stop thinking about them? How can you not want someone at all, but then you think about them? I don't know. All I know is that I don't want him, yet he's been on my mind all day long. I think he's pissed at me because I haven't been around much recently, but I don't want to be ( Read more... )

I'm not really sure where to begin, I just know that I need to say a lot of things and nothing to say at the same time. Neither Kel and I are able to sleep right now and I don't really know why. Well, I do know why I can't sleep *wink wink* but I'm not going to say it here ( Read more... )

Ahh, what to say? So many things have changed in my life recently. I finally moved out of my Mom's house and she freaked out, but how long can you put your own life on hold in order to allow everyone else to live their lives? I know that she will eventually get over it, but I just needed to be out and begin living my life, instead of living her ( Read more... )