wow...havent updated this thing in like two months...so nothin really has been goin on...it seems that whenever i update im in like a wicked bad mood and my entries are all depressing...well...this one is the same...people at school suck...im finding that a lot of people act like one person when they are with you...then the second someone "cooler ( Read more... )

so school today was alright...boreing as usual but nothing bad happened so thats good...got home and just chilled for a while...then went to pick up emily and kaileen and kristine...went to jills and met some kid named dave...hes cool...we had a fun time being stupid and playing woprah and doctor phil...hahaha good times rite their...tomorrow i ( Read more... )

why do people have to be such assholes???...i really dont like it...

blah...i feel soo shitty rite now...i wanna go to prom...but i feel like im too fat to fit into any dresses...or look decent in any of them...blah..i hate this feeling...feeling like i weigh 550 pounds...i need to get out of my house....ive been home since friday...i went to the gym last night and thats the only time i got out...gah...i want to go ( Read more... )

wow...i havent updated in like forever...not much to update...im still going to the gym and trying to loose weight...its a VERY VERY slow process...but its working so thats good...ive been hangin out with nicole a lot lately...i felt bad cause i told kaileen i would go to AAR friday but i think im going shopping with nicole instead and going to AAR ( Read more... )

got a cell phone...woot woot!!!!!!!!!!!....heres my number

1-508-813-1018

I FUCKING HATE ALL THIS...I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL...

havent been in a good mood today...i act like it and pretend like i am and i fool everyone but i can never fool myself..i come home from school and just hate everything and everybody...i cant talk to people the way i used to...i cant even talk to kara the same anymore...we talked on saturday night about some personal stuff that i was going through ( Read more... )

spent the night at kara's last night...had fun...their were about 13 people in her apartment last night...we were all like 1 millimeter apart...it was so crowded...but we drank and they smoked and we all had fun...today hasnt been that good...ive been so depressed lately...grr...i dont like it...im usually excited to go to school and see everyone ( Read more... )

i have nothing else to do so i figured i would update...my dell came in today and its sick and i love it...i love haveing a computer in my room again...school today was alright...nothing to exciteing happened...i came home and got ready and went to my therapist appointment and it felt sooooooo good to get some stuff out...i felt sooo much better ( Read more... )