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blah...i feel soo shitty rite now...i wanna go to prom...but i feel like im too fat to fit into any dresses...or look decent in any of them...blah..i hate this feeling...feeling like i weigh 550 pounds...i need to get out of my house....ive been home since friday...i went to the gym last night and thats the only time i got out...gah...i want to go to school cause its somethin to do..but i dont wanna go cause i dont feel like dealin with people...idk...im in such a shitty mood...i just want to lose weight be pretty and get a boyfriend that will love me...or someone that will love me cause i feel like i have no one at all...and i know that their are people that love me...but idk i cant explain it...its not enough to keep me going...im goin back to feeling the way i did last year...and thats not cool at all...i dont want to feel like that again...or be like that...and i know my friends dont want me to be like that either...but hey what can i do...i cant help the way im feeling...i dont really have anything else to say so im out