hey all, just updating to say i'm not dead or curled up in a ball in my room; the weather's just knocked out my internet, so it's hard to get online. i'm doing much better now, and after i explained to my bosses why i wanted to resign, they've actually been incredibly supportive and kind, and have been trying to get me to get out of the house and ( Read more... )

( tl;dr: i had a good day. )

my god, what is with this nightmare year? it seems like all my friends this year is having a really rough time of it ( Read more... )

today has been absolutely, gutwrenchingly, horrendously atrocious and i would very much like for the world to stop for a moment so i can yell at myself properly for being such a stupid waste-of-space fuck-up. time doesn't work that way though, so i'm busy getting drunk. please don't ask what happened-- the long and short of it is that i messed up, ( Read more... )

started something new about three days ago and so far it's been going well. not sure if it's too early to celebrate, but i feel good, so that's been really great.

i started reading a book today by daniel clay called broken, which i borrowed from the library. it's really good. it's about a dysfunctional family whose... dysfunction, basically ruins ( Read more... )

my day has been about:

o1. contract negotiation. most awkward thing ever, since my bosses are also my friends and i hate asking friends for money, but if i had just gone with what they had offered, i would have been extremely unhappy. we're still not done negotiating, but i'm not budging on my stance. i'm actually surprised that i don't feel bad ( Read more... )

i am really not doing so well this week. my housemate, ummm, kinda witnessed me freaking out last night. today he asked me what he should do next time-- leave me alone, or like, call someone. apparently i scared him a little. i'm kinda *facepalm* about a ton of things right now, but... ohhhhh well. just keep rollin ( Read more... )

oh man, today was so miserable that at some point i actually started laughing from how bad it was.

( tl;dr: basically, i crashed my bike. )

OH MAAAAAN WHAT THE HELL. yanno, earlier this year, my way of dealing with my head being dumb was to like, chainsmoke, 'cause then i'd get really lightheaded and buzzy, and stop thinking. eventually i stopped doing 'cause it was like, yeahhhh, cigarettes are expensive, i'm not gonna effing pay to give myself lung cancer, that's just doubly stupid. ( Read more... )

super sleepy, so, bulletpoints which i may or may not elaborate on later.

- just got back from a sleepover at counterattack's. we went to the melbourne show today. it's like a giant fairground. we made beelines for the justice league showbags because they have giant batman dolls that were the size of our arms. XD the first stall we saw had run out of batman ( ( Read more... )