Chapter 3

Sep 17, 2006 00:10

Live and Die Alone
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Chapter 3

It was 6: 30 in the morning when they got to the venue. People were everywhere trying to get a glimpse of the band. Security was already hard at work keeping the screaming fans back. The concert wouldn’t start till 6 pm.

Angel decided to walk around and meet people. What else was there to do? Making sure the passes she needed were securely attached to the ribbon and draped around her neck, she tucked them under her shirt and left the bus. The guys had left some time ago. She walked around looking at all of the anxious faces hoping to meet the band. She smiled. It was an awesome feeling to know she knew the band that had so many that loved them.

Ray went to the bus to get his mp3 player. He stepped into the bus and saw a young girl standing in the middle of the room. She had a notebook in her hands and was reading.
“Ray!!!” She screamed as she noticed him there.
“What the fuck are you doing?” he asked her.
“I’m sorry but I noticed the door was unlocked so I came in.” she said as if that was the most normal thing in the world.
“I love you and I had to be on the bus.” She shrugged.
“This is our private space, you can’t just walk on someone’s bus.” He said
“Would you, do you wanna fuck me?” she said.
“He was shocked.” But more shocking was what he did. Not shocking to him. They all were having problems controlling how there bodies worked. But it would be shocking to a stranger or fan that happened by. He walked closer to her and sat down in the chair that she was standing next to. He reached out and pulled her onto his lap with him. He gripped her hips as he kissed her firmly on the mouth. She was surprised but kissed him back. He let his hand explore under the back of her shirt as they continued to kiss. He was just about to trail around to the front when Bob walked in.

The sight Bob beheld shocked him. Ray was sitting in the chair under a girl that was patiently kissing him. The shocking part is that she couldn’t have been more than 14.
“Ray! What the fuck are you doing!?” Ray froze and slowly turned to look at him. Then he looked at the girl he was touching.
“She’s way to young! Ray don’t you remember that when they are a certain age you just don’t touch them?” He shifted and put his hands on her hips again but this time he pushed her up off of his lap.
“Oh my God. What was I about to do?” he breathed. She looked disappointed.
“What? I am 15 going on 16 soon. I am old enough to be with you.” She said with a pout.
“No you aren’t. I’m sorry I did that. Forgive me, but I couldn’t control it a moment ago.” Ray said and with that he left the bus.
“No you can’t just stop and leave me! I love you!” she called after him.
“Come on. Off the bus now. I’m sorry I don’t mean to be rude but you must leave now.” Bob said,
He could already feel himself getting out of control. It was something about being near them that triggered it. Sensations of lust would wash through every inch of the body at the mere mention of sex. It really was almost impossible to control. In a huff she stormed off of the bus muttering something about guys being stupid and cruel and she was gone. He sighed and sat heavily in the chair. Wiping the sweat from his brow. Thank god it didn’t happen when Angel was around or the poor girl would have been in real trouble. The stage lit up and the crowd screamed. Gerard stepped out onto the stage. The music started and the place went wild recognizing the song.
“Do you wanna fuck me? In my room? In my bed?” He shouted to the crowd. His eyes locked with Angel’s and she knew he was directing it to her. Her heart began to race. He smiled at her and then turned away.
“This song is called,” he paused
“Give ‘EM Hell Kid!” the crowd erupted again.

The concert over they exited the stage. He went back stage to the little dressing rooms that were set up for them so they could clean up before and after the show. He took a shower and toweled of and then put on a clean t-shirt and jeans.

Gerard grabbed the handle to the door and flung it open. He stepped out into the hall and there stood a girl. Her hair was dark brown, her deep green eyes looked up into his. Her beauty struck him as he closed the door slowly behind him. She just stood there in a daze.
“Hello.” He said. She blinked but didn’t utter a word. He walked over to her.
“Hello there.” He said trying again,
“I’m Gerard, and you?” She blinked again and managed a small sound,
“Kristie.” She said. It was barely audible but he heard it.
“Hi, Kristie. How did you get back here?” He smiled warmly at her and looked straight into her eyes. She swallowed hard and tried to speak but all that came out was
“Uhh.” He looked at her expectantly. So she tried again.
“I got lost.”
“Oh.” He gave a small giggle.

“I love your band and you are my hero. I love everything about you and your message and I am so honored to meet you.” It all rushed out in one breath and she just stood there waiting to see what he’d say.
“Awe thanks Kristie. That’s sweet of you.” He said. They talked a long time. About fans and her friends and his life on the road. He found himself wanting to kiss her. She was so shy and when she looked at him her eyes lit up. When he talked she listened intently as if there wasn’t a sound on earth more important then what he was saying to her. In mid sentence he had taken her hand without even thinking. She had seemed surprised but she didn’t protest in the slightest.

“Yea fans can be,” He reached out and took her hand. She felt a rush from it travel up her spine. She hadn’t expected it but she welcomed him holding her hand. They had been sitting in the little room on the couch talking for over 2 hours. Still she never expected him to take her hand and began to caress the skin between her index finger and thumb.
“A little demanding.” He continued.
“Yea I can see that. People think they know you…” What tumbled from his mouth shocked her back into silence for just a moment. Had Gerard really said that to her? Was she dreaming? Had she heard him right? Her mind reeled with the revelation that yes, he had said that to her. Out of the blue the words tumbled into her mind as he repeated it and said,
“Its ok if you tell me no, I would understand.” He smiled at her with his intoxicating smile.
“Yes.” She said, In a breath less voice as if just the thought had taken all of the wind from her.

Her hand felt soft and warm between his fingers and he couldn’t stop noticing just how beautiful she was. He couldn’t control it any longer. He almost just leaned in and kissed her red lips. He stopped himself, reminding himself that she doesn’t know him and he doesn’t know her and that you don’t just kiss someone like that. She was talking to him. None of her words registered. All he could think of is that he wanted her.
“Kristie, would it be ok if I kissed you?” he said. He hadn’t even made a conscious decision to ask her it just came out as if beyond his control. She seemed shocked and he feared he had made a mistake. That she was going to be angry with him. So he repeated it and told her she could say no. The moment she said yes he reached up and placed his hand on the nape of her neck and pulled her towards him. Her kiss was soft but when he hungrily pressed hard into her lips she greeted him with the same enthusiasm. He found himself very aroused and began to caress her back. He let his hand slide down to her butt. He felt her warmth beneath her cloths. She moaned softly into his mouth. He slid down her neck kissing all the way.
“Gerard.” She moaned.

"Be careful. She's so fragile. Careful." The thought repeated in his mind.
Her body had been tense at first but she had relaxed against him. He could smell her longing getting stronger. He felt her hands go to the buttons on his pants. She fumbled trying to unbutton them. She couldn’t get them undone. She was getting frustrated. He reached down and unbuttoned them for her in one swift motion. Her hand immediately slid into the front of his pants and she lightly touched his throbbing member and he moaned. The sound of him moaning in her ear sent her body into an inferno. She lightly touched it again as if she were afraid he would say no but he answered her by sliding his hands under her shirt. He lifted it up exposing her bra. He kissed the crevice of her breasts and bit down lightly as she arched her chest into him. She gripped him with a little more confidence and began to stroke him harder. He moaned again. Still kissing just above the bra he unclasped it in the back and pulled it and her shirt off at once. She sat beside him bare from the waist up. His hands were caressing one of her breasts then the other. He unbuttoned her pants and pushed his hand in them and into her he slid two fingers. He pulled them out and caressed her teasing her with his fingertips. He placed his lips over her nipple and teased it very lightly with his tongue and teeth.

Kristie couldn’t believe this was happening. Gerard was kissing her again. His smell engulfed her. She opened her eyes so she could see his. They were beautiful and they were open too. She was looking directly into them as they kissed. She felt him tug her pants the rest of the way off and she pushed his off and looked down. His member was still in her hand and now she could see it. She felt the heat intensify as she longed to feel him inside her. She climbed on top of him and he positioned herself so that he could enter. She felt him enter her and began to move with her. His hands went into her hair. He kissed her as she moved up and down. She could feel him deep inside the heat of the friction against her was making her tingle all over. He kissed her breasts again and thrust with her movements.
“Oh God.” She moaned.
“Mmmmm Gerard!” she sighed into his neck.

He lifted her up and she was still straddling him. He was still inside her when he stood up and leaned her against the wall. He was thrusting and so was she. She had the wall for better leverage and he was even deeper inside her. Sweat dripped from her brow as she encircled his neck with her arms. A loud moan escaped her and he could feel her orgasm from deep inside her. He thrust harder. He was close. He was thrusting trying to be gentle but it felt so good. He was still thrusting when he pulled her from the wall and when he gave the last thrust he exploded into her and they slammed into the wall. There was a startled expression on her face for a second and then her eyes went blank but they remained open. That’s when he noticed the blood on the wall. There was a little bit trickling from her ear. But a massive amount from where her head had slammed into the wall. Her vacant eyes stared at him accusingly.
“Oh my fuck! NO!” Gerard exclaimed.
“No no no no.” he said again. He pulled out of her and carried her to the couch.
“Kristie, please no. Don’t be dead. I’m so sorry.” That’s when he realized that it wasn’t Mikey’s fault that it had happened to him. It was almost impossible to be careful. A tear slid down his cheek. He replaced her cloths so at least she’d have them. He looked into her vacant eyes again. He whispered,
“I really am so sorry Kristie.” And he kissed her forehead. He left her lying on the sofa and exited the building tears still coming from his eyes.
The guys were on the bus when he got there.
“We need to go now.” He told them.
“Angel’s not back.” Frankie looked at Gerard.
“What the hell happened to you?”
“Never mind just get her on the bus, we have to go now.” He was obviously shaken from something so without a word he left the bus. Luckily she wasn’t far from the and it only took a minute to locate her.
“Come on, we have to go now.” he told her.
“Okay.” She said with a shrug and they climbed onto the bus. As they started onto the bus he said,
“Lets go.” To the driver and he started it up and headed out onto the highway. Fans watched the bus leave upset that they couldn’t talk to them. Some were even angry but they had to go. Gerard watched as the venue became smaller and smaller.
“I’m so sorry.” He whispered under his breath. Kristie’s face wouldn’t leave his mind.

Gerard was obviously upset. She could see it in his face. Angel looked at him hoping he might look back at her but he just stared out the window. She decided to try to help and moved over to the seat next to him. He jumped as she sat down not expecting her to be there.
“Are you ok?” She asked.
“Yea, I’m fine. There was just a problem at the show. But there isn’t anything anyone can do about it.”
“Oh well you just look so lost. Do you need a hug?” She said. She could still see that something was truly bothering him even tho he smiled at her. He let her place her arms around his chest under his arms and she felt his arms slide around her. She loved the way it felt to be surrounded by him. He clung to her and she burrowed deeper into his chest. He kissed her forehead and she just closed her eyes. It seemed she needed the hug much more than he did. He sighed and buried his face in the crevice of her neck. She adjusted her position because she was beside him, twisted to reach him. She pulled her leg onto the seat folding it so that she could face him. And tightened the embrace. He never acted like he was going to pull away so she just continued to hold on hoping that he wouldn’t end it. She was really not ready to let go.

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……….There was a startled expression on her face for a second and then her eyes went blank but they remained open. That’s when he noticed the blood on the wall. There was a little bit trickling from her ear. But a massive amount from where her head had slammed into the wall. Her vacant eyes stared at him accusingly………..

Gerard woke up in a cold sweat. He could feel the warm body of his girlfriend lying next to him. His heart was racing and the dream had felt so real. A sense of helplessness still lingered with him from when he realized the girl was dead. It made him feel guilty that he was enjoying the dream, up until it all went wrong. It felt so real to him and he could still remember those deep green eyes staring back at him.
“What’s wrong babe?” a sleep filled voice next to him asked.
“Nothing I’m fine, it was just a nightmare. Go back to sleep.”
“A nightmare, you poor thing.” She wrapped herself around him and fell back to sleep immediately. He shook the dream off and lay back down. Sleep finally took him.
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“Hello? Can I help you?” The officer behind the desk said.
“Yes, I need to file a complaint.” The girl looked at the officer expectantly.
“What is it concerning?”
“I was at a concert last night. One of the band members tried to rape me.” The policewoman looked up from her paperwork.
“Tried to?” she said.
“So he didn’t actually rape you?”
“No, he tried but I got away.” She picked up the phone. Hello yea, this is Greta, I have a possible attempted rape here, would you come take a statement? Yes sure. Good, she’s right here.” She replaced the phone on its cradle and looked at the girl.
“Can I take your name miss?” the officer said.
“Sure it’s Annie Dandridge.”
“Age?”
“15, but ill be 16 soon.”
“Alright, just wait in that chair, Officer Stevens will be here to take your statement in a few moments.”

“Hello, I’m Officer Stevens and you are Annie?” she said as she looked at the paper she held.
“Yes.”
“So you say it was a member of the band that played here last night?”
“Yes”
“Do you know his name?”
“Yea, its Ray Toro.”

Officer Stephens continued taking information from the girl. She knew all about this band now. She had seen the case about the girl found in their dressing room. Someone had just left her there. She had died from a massive brain hemorrhage caused from being slammed forcefully into the wall. It would have taken a lot of strength to cause the damage the girl had, and now an attempted rape by a band member? It looked like this band did more than just play on stage at their concerts. They were just wanted for questioning for now. They were already trying to get a hold of the manager of the band. It was just taking some time.

“We’re getting a hotel in New Mexico, right?” Ray looked at the two entangled together.
“Yea we are.” Gerard said as he released his arms from around Angel. Angel blushed.
“No sense in staying on the bus. We don’t have a gig for a week or so.” He said to Ray. Mikey looked up from the video game he was playing
“Yea it’d be nice to have a bed instead of that bunk for a few days.”
“And a shower in your room too, instead of the Truck Stop showers.” Bob said
“Well for some reason we have only 5 rooms, so who shares?” Frankie said as he winked at Gerard. No one else noticed the wink.
“Well Stephen can room with me.” Bob said.
“Well that just leaves you.” Frankie said looking at Angel.
“Who do you wanna share a room with?” Angel blushed again,
“Can I room with you?” she said and glancing at Gerard.
“Yea, sure.” He smiled at her.

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gerard way, my chemical romance, frank iero, mikey way, ray toro, bob bryar

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