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Graduation practice is so much fun. Haha, not really. It's just so useful practicing sitting down and standing up twenty times. I'm glad we got to pick our own partners because it hasn't been so bad since friends are all around me. And my partner is fucking crazy, which makes it even more fun. I can't wait until graduation. One of my brothers is ( Read more... )

Today was my last official day of school. I go in tomorrow and Thursday for graduation practices. And then on Saturday I graduate. I'm going to a friends party afterward and it'll be nice just smoking and whatever else is there. Today kind of sucked, but not too much. I cut today and I was so much more relaxed and calmed. It was great. I know it's ( Read more... )

Cover up my heart ( Read more... )

Today after school was a little scary. I got home and I was only home for 15 minutes or so and my mom starts flipping out because she thought my dad was going to be mad at her for something. She got all hysterical when really the situation was not her fault, so I called my dad and told him about the situation. He was mad but not at her. But I gave ( Read more... )

It's finally the weekend. I have detention tomorrow morning. Yay, I'm so excited. I just love getting up early on a Saturday morning, going to school and staying there pretending to do work. At least this week is over ( Read more... )

I feel like shit, basically. I feel so deceitful. I wasn't supposed to cut one day out of this week. Well, I didn't cut three days. But on the days I did I think I made up for the days I didn't. I kept track of when I cut and why. I never realized there were so many different emotions or events that make me want to cut. I feel bad for doing it. Not ( Read more... )

The talent show went ugh. All of the other people did well. Well, most of them. A couple sucked. But I started off reading my poem and a bunch of assholes in the audience were talking and laughing so I stopped in the middle of my poem. I just stood there wishing I could flip them off or something, but I went off stage. I went back into the dressing ( Read more... )

I am so stupid! I just totally fucking screwed myself over. Tonight is the talent show. I don't have to wear anything nice but I wanted to. So I borrowed this pretty shirt from my friend but I can't wear it. The shirt has a slit at the sleeves. It looks nice and I normally wouldn't have cared. But that's where I've been cutting, on my upper arm. If ( Read more... )

This is the poem I am reading for the talent show on Friday ( Read more... )