oh how times things and feelings have changed in a few months...or realizations for that matter. all i know is that everyday i wake up and just wait for this all to end. I am deathly afraid of him turning to what used to be instead of what is now. I will be the only person who will kill this because i cant control my mind anymore. Since when did i ( Read more... )

is this what fun actually feels like???

They say moving away will never solve your problems. What if you move away to continue on...its not like I have something big here anyway. 3 friends and a crap job. I asked Ty today to be (honest, are we going for real? His responce was vague as usual but he said there is no point in renting in jersey. Just sucks. I need time to save up regardless ( Read more... )

I saw the single life from a whole new prospective and how bitches are in it for themselves. I never realized how good I actually had it till that point in time.

yada yada yada...got back together...3 weeks of absolute "perfectness" not that it is even a word. He was saying all the right things and doing all the right things ( Read more... )

Its easy to say in time things will either work out or not. If not time will heal your heart. This process is making me literally sick. I haven't slept. I'm shaking throwing up diarrhea sometimes I feel like I can't breathe. Other times I'm so disgusted with him and I want to beat the shit out of someone. He texted me yesterday afternoon asking me ( Read more... )

What to do in the middle of the ups and downs.

Drama never leaves some people. I tend to forget that words amd blame is always twisted. Now I remember why I don't hang out with people anymore. Somehow something harmless is turned into something crazy.

This is extremely pathetic. I'm sure I'm sitting around waiting for a text that I will prob never get. Maybe I am all wrong about this. I should have left it at the time I really hated you. I smoked two cigs today. That's extremely disappointing. Plus I don't want to be home ever. I have had enough.

Today was a day that I wanted to kill everyone. My friend gave me this rose quartz to put on myself to take away negative energy from my heart. Let's see how this works. Hahaha