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Its easy to say in time things will either work out or not. If not time will heal your heart. This process is making me literally sick. I haven't slept. I'm shaking throwing up diarrhea sometimes I feel like I can't breathe. Other times I'm so disgusted with him and I want to beat the shit out of someone. He texted me yesterday afternoon asking me yet again to meet up with him to talk. I told him I need more time to myself. There is nothing I have more to say but he claims he has things he wants to tell me. I told him if this I'd so he feels better about this then forget it. He said he lost his gf of two years there is nothing to be happy about. He didn't want this but it had to be done. I don't get it. People don't do things they don't want to do like that. I doubt he will try to get back together and even still maybe when we do finally talk this will help my process more of letting him go just because I don't know how this all came about over a stupid petty fight. I am so so tired. I want to share my life with someone. Not live my life and wish I was part of his. Maybe this had to be done because he's stubborn and irrational and I would have never been able to get close enough. I gave all I possibly could but against his wall I never stood a chance.