Happy birthday my darling Jen, I love and miss you more than words could ever explain.

Jens aunt Michelle died this afternoon. A crack head found her dead in her bedroom, probably from an overdose. This is Amanda's mother, Isaiahs grandmother. Amanda is hysterical. Its all just to close to home about Jen, and right past the 2 month anniversary of Jen dying too. Michelle has no family except Amanda and her sister Jackie, so I dont ( Read more... )

So A girl that Jen used to know found it necessary to IM me this morning and yell at me because something wasnt exactly how she thought it was with Jen and I and then continued to tell me how Jen had cheated on me with her while we were at the club together, and while I was looking for her, how Jen was doing this and that with her. Felt it ( Read more... )

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Its been a while since I have written, I dont have much time or motivation anymore. I have good days and bad, usually more bad than good unfortunatly. Yesterday was 2 months since Jen died....I miss her so much. I know things werent great with us near the end, but the way I look at it is addiction is a disease, just like my dads alcoholism. Its ( Read more... )

I feel like I am stuck. I asked my mother the other day if when she moved into the new house that she was building could we turn the basement into an apartment for me? I could come and go as I please, have who I want over. She said she would love that. I would have a bedroom, living room and bathroom. Now all of a suden Im down to a bedroom and ( Read more... )

~Find the girl who calls you beautiful instead of hot...who calls you back when you hang upon her or calls you just because. Who will lay under the stars and listen to your heartbeat or will stay awake just to watch you sleep...Wait for the girl who pursues you, who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world even when you are in ( Read more... )

April 25, 2005....A day that I will always look back on and think of as the worst day in my entire life. Jen died that day. I have never in my life loved someone as much as I loved, and still do love her. It was so terrible, I never imagined anything so terrible happening, but it did. It was a Monday, and I was at work. I had been trying to call ( Read more... )

So yet again, its been a while. Things have been tough, my hours were cut at work, i am down to one job, and things are just very stressed. But on the other hand, I go for a second interview for this awesome job tomorrow. working as an ast program director in a residential program. if i get this job money wont be an issue anymore, which is what i ( Read more... )

So its been quite a while since I have written. The 2 jobs thing? Yea, well, I had 3 for a while, but now that christmas is over, I wont be going back to Bath and Body works untill probably mothers day. Thats good though because 3 was running me ragged ( Read more... )