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i dont know why that last post didn't work out ... i love this song. i can't believe a german girl can wail like this. for real. also, its funny to hear germans saying the title with their little accents ( Read more... )

ive been living in berlin for five months. i think the worst part about being here is knowing i have to come back. i think its keeping me from letting go. or maybe its just easier to think that the knowledge that i am going back is whats making me feel that way. i don't understand how i can still miss someone so much after everything. i don't ( Read more... )

for some reason this still isn't getting easier.

berlin is not an easy city to be heartbroken in. it offers you chemical escapes and reinforces your loneliness with ugly bauhaus architecture and endlessly gray weather and nieselregen. people in the train dole out withering looks as often as americans dole out meaningless handshakes and exchange pleasantries. i miss the books i used to read ( Read more... )

right now my life is devoid of money, love, vegetables and happiness. generally i am a happy person and i appreciate everything that goes well in my life and i think i hold it together pretty well, but sometimes everything is really really horrible. and it is horrible right now.

im eating scrambled eggs for dinner, because its whats in the fridge and im trying to spend little or no money every day right now. i see a lot of spaghetti in my future. like a real 20 something.

the soldier on ep by andrew bird is amazing.

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my cures for my wintertime depression:

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i kind of want to cut my bangs so i look like this.


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when is the right time to grow up and delete your livejournal and myspace?

ben left berlin and he took the sun with him. the rain has been smacking my window all day. i have barely left my apartment this weekend and have spent the majority of my time lying around in either my room or the living room, or variously being interminably hungry/eating/cleaning the kitchen. a friend of mine here committed suicide yesterday, ( Read more... )