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ive been living in berlin for five months. i think the worst part about being here is knowing i have to come back. i think its keeping me from letting go. or maybe its just easier to think that the knowledge that i am going back is whats making me feel that way. i don't understand how i can still miss someone so much after everything. i don't know if its that i havent met someone else, or if i should really take any of it seriously.
the next four days are going to be really shitty. then everything is going to get really good again and maybe i won't miss him as much. i'm also going to need a platonic drinking partner in august. i think about august probably at least twice a day every day. honestly, im terrified.
the next four days are going to be really shitty. then everything is going to get really good again and maybe i won't miss him as much. i'm also going to need a platonic drinking partner in august. i think about august probably at least twice a day every day. honestly, im terrified.