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Welcome to Vanessa's Blog!
My name is Vanessa and this is my blog. I have struggled with anorexia for 20 years and self-injury for more than 30 years. It is my hope that many of the things I have written about here will be things you can relate to.
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What if Anorexia and Autism Are Genetically Linked?
I am constantly looking for scientific answers to justify what I believe to be true with regards to both self-injury and eating disorders. To an outsider, these disorders are hard to understand, but for the sufferer, it rarely comes as a surprise ( Read more... ) -
When Stress Comes In Little Packages
The big issues in life are things I can handle. Sure, they are stressful, but few are rarely a surprise ( Read more... ) -
Living Up To The Hype
I LOVED the outcome of the Kentucky Derby this weekend! How extraordinary it must have been to have everyone's eyes elsewhere so that horse and rider could just "enjoy the ride" without the media pressure ( Read more... ) -
The Power of Dreams
When I think of my mind, I imagine it to be a huge filing cabinet. When I'm thinking about something, I literally imagine a part of myself walking up and down these huge halls pulling out files, scanning them fo relevance, and then either taking them to look at further, or putting them back and continuing the search ( Read more... ) -
Gone Too Soon
At 9:52 tonight my dog's heart stopped ( Read more... ) -
Into The Lion's Den
Although I enjoy visiting my mother, I don't enjoy going to her house. Her house is filled with things from my past, painful things, and being there is a stark reminder of how my life used to be ( Read more... ) -
One Day, Maybe?
I'm not a patient person. I cannot say for sure if this is part of my make-up or a result of living in a family where time was constantly of the essence ( Read more... ) -
Faded But Not Totally Gone
On the news this week there was a story about a young girl that had been bitten in the face by an alligator. The jaws clamped down literally over one of her eyes and down to her cheekbone. But in looking at her, her scars are minimal. Extraordinary ( Read more... ) -
Cutting and Feelings Of Love
I just finished Robert Goolrick's memoir, "The End Of The World As We Know It". In it, he details his struggles with alcohol abuse and his use of cutting to try and deal with the sexual molestation he suffered as a child at the hands of his father ( Read more... )