i feel that its only fair that i write this here since more than half of the entries here are about her in the first place. for startders im drunk on a thursday night so just bear with me. have you ever met someone in your life that just fucked you up by all acounts. like there are girls and then there is THE GIRL! the only girl that has that ( Read more... )

i spiral. I lay awake night after night, half awake, half asleep as only the insomniacs do. Thinking about life, money, best friends who don't talk, women who speak with their chest not their hearts. It all abruptly ends in a fiery inferno of lies, deceit. Im dating a bartender, well "hanging out" if there ever was such a thing. its special. ( Read more... )

tonite, yes fucking tonite! (i loved that part of young life) we sat around hunters pool and swappd the usual: stories, laughter, and saliva from a bottle of MD 20/20. It was in the exactly essence of the word, perfect. That's what life is about, just being with friends. Some people call it boring, i say its only boring if the peopel you are ( Read more... )

Originally, i was planning on boycotting UNITED 93 on the basis that i didn't want to watch the commercialization of an American tragedy. I was very mistaken in my pre-concieved notions. That movie was so heartfelt and shot masterfully to become a tribute rather than a money-grubbing hollywood thriller. It made me actually cry, a feat that hasn' ( Read more... )

i dont know what it is but there is something in the rush that can only be experienced when you know you can touch the ground going 70 miles an hour. I really like my motorcycle. It's like now i am officially part of every club i ever wanted to belong to, as tim so eloquently put it. I enjoy the looks i get from old ladies cursing me for my ( Read more... )

This summer is off to a great start and i am sooo freaking excited. It's already taken shape to be that one that brings it all back to just havin fun. It has already started to recapture what its like to be a kid again with pick baseball games and time at the park with old friends. Yes, the park, you are never ever too old for the park. And ( Read more... )

sitting here in my drunken stupor two thingds are clear: 1) i am drinking wayyyy to much 2) Blink 182 and their song pathetic is the best gift from god to this wrld!. It's hard to let go of things that you are holding on too way too much. I have an imagination that runs woild like a fucking Native American (no indain for suraje and mis brosephs ( Read more... )

the following is an entry from September 30, 2005. My english professor made us keep a journal and this entry is one of my favorites ( Read more... )

I thihnk the sense of smell is the most powerful sent on the planet. The smell of a flower can make someone fall in love and evoke deep memories of better days. While the simple smell of rotten food can cause nausea and induce vommitting. Im drunk while writing this so bear with me. Today i caught wiff of a smell that is most intoxicating to me ( Read more... )

Let me take you on a journey, I think you'll like this one ( Read more... )