I do it every time ( Read more... )

Torturing myself and Sleeping

I feel sick as all hell
All I want to do is curl up into a ball and die
for physical and emotional reasons
please, make it stop

It is funny, the way I find myself trying to fix the unfixable ( Read more... )

So last night I meet Matt and it went well, really well. Today I had to tell Frantz there was somebody else. He looked absolutely heartbroken and I feel incredibly bad. I ask if he wants the bracelet back that he gave me for valentines day, he says no. Brett and I look it up on the site of the store its from to see how much it was. $79 on a ( Read more... )

i feel so sad and lonely.

If the schedule is correct, I have 25 hours of work this week. Plus so much school I should really catch up on. I don't have time for a boy anymore, yet still, all I wanna do is find somebody. So much that I ruin any chance I may have. I'm looknig too hard and too deep. I'm not focusing on school and I'm not even having fun, just feeling the ( Read more... )

I feel incredibly sad today :(

YES! Two extra hours of work this week. Honestly, that excites me. But how sad is that? lol. They call me in two come in at 4 instead of 6 and I get excited. Wow, that shows you how much of a loser I really am but oh well, I can deal with that. :)

Dirty Dancing is the best movie EVER...maybe lol. but it is totally awsome. One of those feel good movies you know? I heard the music from it out in the living room so I had to go watch it. I was feeling crappy before but now I just feel better. Why stress out over aguy who isn't going to fall for me like that? lol Oh well, anyways...I guess ( Read more... )