wait for the volta

[ciette]

late night hypophrenia reruns
all i see is static

There's a silent sort of sadness
Which takes root at an unfound core of your pulse,
Spreading a black widow's web (invisible) around your limbs
Criss-crossed, tangling, falling,
Crashing inwards into a fallout.

I can't remember when
I lost the feeling in my fingertips,
Or when my knee started shuddering

Comments

[ciette]

uuuu thank you unni!! ♥ (HUGS TIGHT)

[ciette]

♥

[ciette]

Thanks bb, I'll do my best to make that happen! Thankfully I'm still in that stage where I enjoy working on coursework and I'm still greatly interested in it - I hope it stays that way in future too, though the stress is really accumulating now. TT TT yes yes, work more and think less! /drills into mindset

And so it will. It's terrifying how prelims is already coming! But we'll make it through, just like how we made O's. ♥ Let's fight, Yama!!!

[ciette]

That's an interesting take. Heh that's true, when there are worser things to worry about, stress does help to distract myself with! XD haha oh yama you're so optimistic.

2.5 WEEKS TT TT I swear I'm going to be spending 80% on it on coursework. OKAY OKAY gotta multitask like crazy yessss /fistpump

[icydarkx]

omg kouhai chan I haven't seen you in awhile but it looks like you need the senpai talk! D: seems like everything you do isn't enough, or things don't seem to go the way you want! I don't know how it works in art and perhaps you're having family troubles, but I always know that you put in SO MUCH effort into your work and you have so many friends here giving you support! And even though it feels "tentative and in suspension", you've just gotta trust that you'll get there, trust that you'll make it no matter what. Coz that's the trust I have in you! :D sms me k! I think something's wrong with either my phone or your phone >< ganbatte kouhai chan!! ^^

[ciette]

BC-SEMPAIIIIII!! TT TT thanks so much for your encouragement, it means a lot to me! Thanks so much for the faith, I'm so glad to have friends like you to support me. ;_; I'll definitely make sure that my hard work will not come to waste, somehow! I won't give up yet~! ; A ;

Woah, it's really been a while since I've spoken to you. Eh that's really strange, I did reply your messages! They didn't go through? D: How have you been coping? It must be tough juggling both NS and studies >":

[icydarkx]

yay!! ^^ hmm, that means its either my phone or your phone's fault xD >< haha I don't think I can make it this year.. >< >< maybe next year? ):

[tsuyokunaru]

part of me wants to stare at you shocked and ask what about you isn't artistic when it seems to me like you bleed talent, another just wants to embrace you into a tight and protective hug that will surround you into your ready to go out again into this beautiful and cruel world.

I don't know what to say, it seems like "hang it there" and "work hard" won't cut it this time, but you're strong. Remember why you chose this and what your priorities are and, if you don't know yet, look for them in your heart.

[ciette]

Joyceee, you're so sweet, y'know? ♥ ; u ; talent orz orz that's a huge compliment bb, thank you so much! ♥ I wish I could hide in your arms before I'm ready for it too TT TT sometimes I really do feel like such a coward and that I need to hide somewhere to regain (mental) health points orz

Thank you my lovely, I do feel that I seem to lose sight of my goals sometimes when the stress just overtakes. I'll remember your words and make sure I fight towards my goal! I think I chide myself internally way too much that I lose hope - which is ridiculous, because I've got the support of such amazing friends like you. <": ♥ hubby!

[numbuh_009]

Oh Belle, you are so talented artistic-wise that is shows even through your writing (which is so beautiful that, as a writer, I want to be jealous but can't). I want to say something inspiring about picking yourself up and going on, but I can't really think of it at the moment, so throw your hands up to the sky and repeat after me: LIFE COULDN'T GET BETTER~

[ciette]

Ohhh Cindy you're so sweet!! TT TT your writing is so smooth and enjoyable to read, I can never assert that enough! so there's no reason for you to be jealous because your writing is a;ldksjfasdf! If not for the lack of time I'm sure I'd have read everything and be hounding you for more fic nao. ♥
Your method is much more effective hehe. I read your comment in the middle of art theory class and I couldn't stop grinning throughout. XD iluuuu ♥ LIFE COULDN'T GET BETTER~!!! o/

btw, your icon makes me laugh. always. aaaa yesunggie's dorkiness prevails!