"Whatever it is you're here to do, keep practising it, get good at it;

whatever you do, practise kindness, and most importantly, practise gratitude."

Mr Jason Mraz

 These aims I have always had since IDK when. Stupid little things that I hope that I can get to do, a bit like a bucket list although I'm not that old. And much more frivolous than an actual bucket list. I'll keep updating it as I think of things I want to do; and hopefully also get the chance to strike things off. Some of them have been here for ( Read more... )

You get back on the flight to paradise ( Read more... )

Feeling quite retrospective lately ( Read more... )

I have so many things now, I am so lucky that I have to choose and even that breaks my heart.

Have I gotten so fortunate that now all the things I want/need are coming together, but at the same time?

And then having to go back to not having anything...

Sometimes the world can make you feel you're not welcome anymore
and you beat yourself up and you let yourself get mad

and in those times when you stop loving
the woman I adore

you can relax 
because babe I got your back

you wake up each day different
another reason for me to keep holding on

I'm just going to love you like the woman I love

I need to stop ( Read more... )

It's raining outside and I'm playing instrumental music off the laptop. The view outside the window is foggy, so the houses look like cottages. This feels surreal. I feel like I'm somewhere else in this moment.

I could, really, stay like this for a long long time. It is beautiful.

I really want to go home - I'm not counting down the days, but I want them to be gone. I want to be removed from this place at least for a while, and be placed somewhere I know I'll be safe and protected ( Read more... )

Unequivocally,

undeniably,

Fuck you, and fuck it all.

My head is already a fucking mess, and I don't need anyone or anything to help make it worse. 

I need the strength to do the right thing at the right time.

I fear I won't have the strength and the courage.