Yeah, as crazy as it sounds...even though I'm in a relationship right now, I don't think I want to be in one ever again. People are just to god damn annoying to deal with. Super serial right now.

Ugh, why is it that as soon as I'm alone all these thoughts go through my head that make me hate myself ( Read more... )

Words are just words. I could sit here and type all my goals and what I want to do with my life, but until I do anything its all just empty promises ( Read more... )

I can't really understand what I'm so afraid of ( Read more... )

As shitty as this sounds, I finally broke up with Eric and couldn't be happier. It feels like this huge burden has been lifted off my back and yeah, I just feel great. I moved back in with my sister...Things are going okay. I've been going out a lot but I think thats just because I missed my friends so much. She's irritated with me, but she'll ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so lost and just broken. I hate my life. I miss my mom. I can't live without her. Whenever I'm alone all I do is cry. I'm pushing my family away and I hate it. I've fucked everything up. I'm sure my sister is infuriated with me. I just want to be a good person. I can't do anything right. Everything ( Read more... )

So as of right now Eric and I are broken up. I believe that we're going to stay that way. I told him that I wanted to move back into my sisters house and he said that if I do that he wont date me anymore. I'm moving into my sisters house again, there's no doubt about it. He says he's really scared to lose me and that us being so far apart from ( Read more... )

Well, I'm still truckin along. Although, its getting harder and harder not to play in traffic everyday.

I think there's something seriously wrong with me. Haha, more true than funny.

I know Eric's trying to protect me, I just wish he'd act like he gives a shit.

My birthday is coming up soon. That's neat.

Its been close to a year, and I still wake up every morning and think about you. I've lost many nights sleep because of you, and lost hundreds more tears over the thought of you. My heart aches every time you come into my mind. I look at everyone else with theirs, and it seem so unfair. How loving they are, how close they are, how fortunate ( Read more... )

Well, I bought DDR today. I'm such a nerd. I don't care I love it and it loves me. I'm pretty happy. I think I'll be a hermit for a while.