i want you to notice ( Read more... )

she's in my head, her shocking, pointy black boots, and the way she slams her way into the walls. there is no solitude in a heat such as this, we both swelter (i quietly, her loudly), we both drink the lukewarm water that drips from the tap. and i'm just sitting, waiting, patiently, needing an empty that doesn't hurt as much as this one. valentine ( Read more... )

its 54 minutes past 10, and i'm home, my stomach is aching. thinking about ribena sadness and kristy-lee sitting in her black shoes and her little ponie colouring book. thinking about e. wanting to curl up into a ball and hurl myself off a fifteen-story building with sharp glass. i just need this dislocation to be so precise that i cant feel it ( Read more... )

i feel all used up - my books are all empty and unexciting, dull dull blanks. i need to get out more! i know it so well. from now on i will work more hours and harder so that i will have extra $$$ to float around venice ( Read more... )

i think everyone ought to start over!
and (no, i don't mean hide and skittle away, i mean)
start over!

soon i will delete almost everyone from my dead little friendslist and make everything public so that i can write without feeling my expectations and yours xx

i want to be free, forever.

ps; thank you kristy, i feel better already.

Eleanor Rigby picks up the rice in the church
Where a wedding has been,
Lives in a dream.
Waits at the window,
Wearing the face that she keeps
In a jar by the door,Who is it for ( Read more... )

cake! she says - cake!

the time is still, it's bored, it's useless. i throw it around like a cosmic yo-yo and it glides up and down the air with a sigh. essays, essays, and then an exam. the truth is i have so little compared to my fellow peers but i just procrastinate so well it becomes a realistic reason to swallow the dust. i'm so obsessed with not getting this done i ( Read more... )

# 291

a crash course in bright plastic blue band-aids; i speak to kristy-lee so openly i actually feel Physically Lighter after we depart. today i made over 350 dollars, which, by electric-broom girl standards; is a ripper. my brother is sitting in my room with a tight bandage on his ankle and a spotted bruise rash on his legs from a spinning ( Read more... )

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