I don't know how I lived without xkcd before, but these two sum up what's been happening to me from outside people more often than not...except for some subtle differences, #2's turnabout is my answer to all those of you out there who feel it necessary to hurt unabashedly and for no good reason...

#1  The offender


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Just when I think that I'm ok with this stage of my life, it gets all screwy again.  Why do I have to love to forsake all else?  Why does loving hurt so much?  Why is it the more you love someone, the more they hurt you?  I'm getting to the point where I don't want to love any more.  If the point of it is for everyone to hurt me, then I don't want ( Read more... )

I have a love that I've forsaken all else for...I have a love that I would die for...I have a love that fills me with joy and then sometimes crushes me with sorrow...I have a love that is intense it defies logic and reason...I shouldn't keep it, as it drives me mad, but I do anyway...I can't give up...I won't.  I'm not going to let my anxiety, ( Read more... )

And I know that this is just my biology talking, but I've come to more than one part of my life where I've actually entertained thoughts of becoming pregnant and being a mother.

I won't go into all the details, because my head is far too fucked up to list everything here in a timely fashion (I mean, I AM at work!) but...I just had to get it out of ( Read more... )

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no well wishes today
no need to talk to me anymore
you got your way
you got what you wanted out of me
I hope you're happy now
and now I have the smug un-satisfaction

of knowing I was right all along.

This is all your fault

Don't even think I will ever forgive you
your intentions belie the facade
that has made everyone believe
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crying most of the evening

I feel pathetic, worthless, and alone

my heart is breaking a little more every day

it feels like you don't even care

you brush it off like it's some sort gnat

buzzing around you inconveniently

when all I want is to be loved

god I hate this...and I miss you...

It seems as of lately I have so much introspection and not enough time to write it down.

I need to know if where I'm going is who I'll be or if it's the right path.

I'm trying to hard to make it all fit in such a distorted little box, but I need to figure out who I am and what I want before I just stuff everything in there.

I think that I have an idea ( Read more... )

I am defeated and bleeding from the heart I cut from my sleeve ( Read more... )