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Damn!
The last time I posted was in October! I need to get on the ball...unfortunately, I can't now...I have so much calc to do...but my head is swimming with so much emotion...I need to get it out sooner or later ( Read more... ) -
The Rage Within
Used up, bone dry
it doesn't even matter to you...
I gave you all I had to give
and still it wasn't good enough for you.
All of you, takers, users, manipulators
I asked for nothing but love and in return
I got selfishness, idiocy, and disrespect.
You are responsible.
You are at fault.
You've ignited the rage within
and it burns out of control
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sometimes...
It's mind blowing that the amount of love that you possess is equal to the amount of hate.
And sometimes the intensity of these two, always waging war on each other inside of me, threatens to rip me apart on a consistent basis. -
Re: broken
Have you ever broken something and it shattered so that there were blank slivers left in some places? Try as you might, you couldn't possibly find them, let alone reassemble them with the whole ever again ( Read more... ) -
I got broken...
Not sure if the pieces are too fragile to be put back together or not...
I'll let you know in the morning, I suppose.
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What is real?
I have all these questions
around in this big eddy
Everything that I thought, isn't
and what I've come to believe
has all been lies.
People turn,
the winds gust,
I turn to meet my enemy
And everything is dust.
I can't fight against intangibles
I can't prepare a defense against unknowns
I can't shine a light into this nightmare
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I am morbidly curious and somewhat appalled?
I actually don't know how I feel about this...sometimes I think Christians take it WAAAAAAY too far. I think that I would feel better about this if there were parks like: The Odin Experience or Judaism-land ( Read more... ) -
Failure...
Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly
One small sideways look and I feel so ungood
Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make
Me feel the way I thought only my father could
Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me
One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked
How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily
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La petit mort
Like tiny daggers
Growing with each swell
I take a deep breath
And inhale the bittersweetness.
I linger on the high
Terrified of the low
My heart bruised and battered
As I turn from Judas' kiss.
I want to give in
I want to reach out
With each fevered touch
I surrender in exclusivity.
I'm reeling with torment
It's all just a game
You're killing me quietly
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so much to say, never enough time...
Why oh why must I feel this way?
Why do I feel so much less of a person than before?
Who are you and what did you do to the person that royally kicked some ass?
meh.
I miss me.