its hard to believe that when my mother was my age she had a 9 and 11 year old who she wanted very little to do with. i cant imagine myself living that reality.

i'm lost

and feeling a bit drastic

imagining all the hundreds of other things i could do with my life

but knowing i don't have the balls to do anything else riskier

than what i am doing now

which is nothing

by the way

given the time of the day ( Read more... )

The Knife - Bird ( Read more... )

"There are one thousand suns rising every day. We only see one of them because of our fixation on monolithic thinking."

"Each time we don't say what we want to say, we're dying. Make a list of how many times you died this week. "

yoko ono ;D

mineralized ( Read more... )

i had a dream that my boyfriend and i got into a fight so i left his house, all my stuff there my car, purse, phone, etc ( Read more... )

i cant believe i spend days and days and days without saying i love you to anyone. but i love SO MANY PEOPLE. but i rarely ever say it. ive only known 3 people i was even remotely close to that have died. but i know dozens of people i would be devastated if they left. but do they know how much they mean to me? how many people express such a thing,

it must just be Mercury Retrograde but damn my boyfriend has been saying some dumb shit. dumb as in, if he thought about it he would realize its probably going to be hurtful to me. not that it really matters in the end, but hes definitely on a roll ( Read more... )

i wish i could post something happy here more often ( Read more... )