so despite myself i have been having a very good past few days ( Read more... )

past two days have been INCREDIBLY sucky, major crisis of emotion and all that goodness. but they always know how to get me in a good mood, even if they can't solve the problem. and even if that involves a second dinner of absolute crap at dennys and then speedwalking down the street at 12:30 in the middle of the night, doing the butt dance for the ( Read more... )

have you ever felt like every inadequacy that you've ever seen in yourself, every doubt that you've ever had about yourself, and all of the worst things you've ever thought about yourself are just standing there kicking you in the head and pointing and laughing and nothing can make it stop? no? oh. nevermind then.

why does this always happen to me?! what is it about me that people find so repulsive? i know that she is cuter than me. i know that she is skinnier than me, and more fun than me. i know that they get along better, even though he and i are pretty much the same person. even she said that. why am i destined to be alone? why will things never work out ( Read more... )

so update on the whining (and i swear that this will be the end of it [yeah, probably not])

my life sucks and i am worthless and i want to die.

i have completely lost any ability to focus, concentrate, motivate myself, or just to accomplish anything at all. despite the ever increasing load i have as i wind my way towards the end of the year, i simply don't do anything. i play rummikub with jason until midnight. i bug sarah while she's reading or dance for jen (don't ask). i came to the ( Read more... )

so totally random, but i was just looking last night and i swear colin meloy is like that slightly thinner twin brother of benjamin gibbard. strange. so apparently if you look like either of these guys you are destined to make great music. maybe i should get a little plastic surgery...

i'm pretty sure that life existed before friday, but i can't remember much of it nor do i think that it was exciting ( Read more... )

I went home this weekend. And it was wondrous and magnificent and beautiful and peaceful and all the other good -fuls that you can think of. My mom just kept getting mad at me because I can't seem to say nice things about Utah and I have a tendency to tell people that i don't like it there. But Seattle is my home. I have lived here, in the same ( Read more... )

i haven't posted for a while. i guess i was waiting until i had fully formulated that deep introspective entry on the state of my life. but that will have to wait until later, but don't worry. it will come. for now i will say, that for the most part, life is good. pretty good ( Read more... )