don't know when, but a day is gonna come
i have completely lost any ability to focus, concentrate, motivate myself, or just to accomplish anything at all. despite the ever increasing load i have as i wind my way towards the end of the year, i simply don't do anything. i play rummikub with jason until midnight. i bug sarah while she's reading or dance for jen (don't ask). i came to the library to study for my astronomy test tomorrow, and in three hours i have read about five pages and the rest of the time has been spent stealing music and checking my email every 20 seconds. now i am doing this.
jen was reading her nutrition book, and she is convinced that i have adhd. i am not entirely convinced that i don't. and i think it may have something to do with the weather as well. the weather in utah has adhd. yesterday alone it snowed, then it started raining and the wind was blowing, then the sun came out and it was like 50 degrees, and then randomly started snowing again. i don't understand! i want out of here!!!! my mom gets here tomorrow. so excited.
i hate boys. i hate freshman boys. i hate my cute friends that steal boys. i hate that boys i hate are not going out of town and so have to come out to dinner with me on saturday. i hate that i am going to die alone and no one will ever love me. i hate that i don't think i am good enough for anyone, and i'm really not, and that when i think perhaps i might be, i get my head kicked in with the steel-toed boot of reality and i spend the rest of my week lying on my bed alone. i hate self-pity but people, it's all i got going for me right now. << end of whining.
WORK DANG YOU KELSEY WORK! i better go now before i start hitting myself in the middle of the library.
jen was reading her nutrition book, and she is convinced that i have adhd. i am not entirely convinced that i don't. and i think it may have something to do with the weather as well. the weather in utah has adhd. yesterday alone it snowed, then it started raining and the wind was blowing, then the sun came out and it was like 50 degrees, and then randomly started snowing again. i don't understand! i want out of here!!!! my mom gets here tomorrow. so excited.
i hate boys. i hate freshman boys. i hate my cute friends that steal boys. i hate that boys i hate are not going out of town and so have to come out to dinner with me on saturday. i hate that i am going to die alone and no one will ever love me. i hate that i don't think i am good enough for anyone, and i'm really not, and that when i think perhaps i might be, i get my head kicked in with the steel-toed boot of reality and i spend the rest of my week lying on my bed alone. i hate self-pity but people, it's all i got going for me right now. << end of whining.
WORK DANG YOU KELSEY WORK! i better go now before i start hitting myself in the middle of the library.