Finally got a letter back from Pitt today regarding the Canchellor's scholarship (full ride).  I didn't get it.  Thus my intentions have been shattered.  I do have the full tuition scholarship, but still, I would leave undergraduate school with over $40,000 in debt, plus I want to study abroad.  And I plan on earning my PHd and may be entering a ( Read more... )

I really don't feel myself.  I feel out of space and time.  I used to get this feeling when I was younger, but in shorter bursts.  Now I've had it since last night.  It's really hard to describe besides its being unpleasant.

I fell asleep by 11:30 last night but woke up at four.  I couldn't stop thinking.  But finally I slept again.  Then I woke up ( Read more... )

Why does the world bring me up, and then knock me down again?  
I really hate this.  Different causes, same feelings.  And uncertainties underlined with certainties and then denials and then not knowing which causes agony and it's all I can think about and just make me happy or put me out of my misery faster. 
If you feel it, do it.

I just want to say, the LiveJournal festive spirit is very nice ( Read more... )

From KTT.  The two things I want to tell two people:

You are totally awesome, I'm glad we're getting back in touch.  After all, you used to be one of my best friends, it's nice being close to you.
I felt bad just sitting there and not being able to make you feel better.

In other news, I have made the musical.  I am both a munchkin and a winkie, (one ( Read more... )

Thanks to the friendly public library, I have acquired the new Killer's album, Sam's Town, and the new Evanescence album, The Open Door.  Here's a taste of each.

Sam's Town - The Killers

At first I didn't think I liked the new album as much as Hot Fuss, but perhaps I just need to give it more of a listen.  The first one just seemed to have more ( Read more... )

So I went and everything was fine.  Kept my eyes averted and my attention averted and I was fine.  I had fun in fact ( Read more... )

I can bench 45lbs, (the bar itself).  What now?!  Be intimidated!

So Jackie and I decided to work with the boys after school on wendsday.  But first, we had to talk to Mr. Harnick at the newspaper meeting.  When we got to the computer lab, he wasn't there yet, so we got in by squeezing through the crack in the wall between the ESL office and the lab ( Read more... )

So I found the new digital camera that I want to get for xmas.  Half paid by me, the other half my mother.  (my second time spending my entire bank account on a digital camera in 2 years.  never again will I buy an HP product!)  And waiting to get the digital camera has triggered some sort of crazy reaction in me that now has me feeling fired up, ( Read more... )

What happens between the ages of two and four?
Up until two, a child's eyes are big and bright and smiling and eager to learn, craving interaction.
By four, most children, (or so I have seen), still have the big, bright eyes, only they're hiding from interaction with the unknown.  In other words, they become shy.  What causes this shyness?  Is it ( Read more... )