In My Heart (4/?)
Title: In My Heart (4/?)
Pairing: Minho/Taemin
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG 15
Summary: Shin Taemin kept teasiing Minho, making him recall of the past...
In My Room | Previous Chapter | Next Chapter
-Minho POV-
“Is it because of Shin Taemin?” I don’t know if I should hate him for knowing me too well sometimes. I nodded my head.
“I was quite shock when Heechul first introduced to me. Indeed, he looked exactly like Taemin and his name was also Taemin.” So he knows him much earlier than I do? Does that mean he pulled me to the bar that day was all planned? I’m such a fool.
“Not just his name or look hyung… His tone and eyes… Were like how Taemin was before and after the incident. That emotionless look, that innocent voice…” He placed his hands on my shoulder, I felt something wet on my face once again. I rubbed it away and to find myself crying.
Taemin… Taemin… Why did you run across the road? Until now, I don’t even have an answer… Sometime I regret my own action… If I didn’t let you die, would you be in my arms right now? If I never left the house that day, would you still living on your life painfully? If that incident never happened, would we be living to the fullest of our life?
If regret can hurt someone, how many times would I have been dead by now?
I went back to the bar again the next day, he was having his dance performance. I don’t know why again, but tonight he look a little more like Taemin. He wasn’t wearing any make-up, maybe a little foundation and lip gloss. It’s a wife-beater with a sleeveless jacket and skinnies but without any holes.
He came down sweating like yesterday, I passed him his usual drink that Heechul always prepares.
“I thought after last night, you won’t be coming again.” He took a sip of his drink after asking.
“I promised Heechul hyung so I won’t break my promise.” He chortled as if the thing I said was stupid.
“Don’t you know promises are meant to be broken?” His thoughts were always negative, as if in this world there wasn’t anything to be happy about. But his words remind me or someone breaking his promise…
“But do you know you made me more worried acting like that?” He looked down, I wasn’t trying to scold him or what. I just… I just… I… Aishi…
“Promise me, you will tell me everything… Don’t keep it bottled.” He nodded and we both smile, it was real...
That time I caught him cutting himself during Jinki hyung’s birthday. He promised that from that day own he would tell me everything… but it was all lies… He kept cutting his own thighs, nightmares still haunts him but he acted as if he was getting better because of my care and concern…
Was that what Taemin at that time was thinking? Promises are meant to be broken? I clutched the cloth in front of my chest, the pain coming from the heart… I’m feeling it again…
“I’m right, isn’t it?” I know I can never win him, he was witty in talking… I kept quiet not talking to him anymore.
“Sore loser.” He sticks his tongue at me and left the seat. It’s really funny how sometime his action and thoughts were like Taemin and how different they were. Living in two different kind of environment with some alike personality, I think I’m insane to think this way.
I kept my eyes on him, not wanting him to be prey by some lecher around there. He made his way through the crowds and to a table. I saw him grinning ear to ear as he sat down beside a guy. The taller male wrapped his hands around his waist, pulling him closer to him. Taemin, what the hell are you doing? Taemin’s fingers were tracing circles along the other male thighs. Was he whispering things into his ear or just breathing hot air to seduce the older male?
The guy eyes were full of lust, I know he would make a move soon. Wait, did his hand just slipped into his pants? That fucking asshole.
I quickly pushed my way through and to their tables. I yanked him off from the older male making both of them shock.
“Sorry, he’s mine tonight.” One of my hands was around his waist and the other turned cupped his cheek to turn it and look at me. I crashed our lips together, making sure that man had a full view of it.
Seriously speaking, it’s been about two years since I last kissed someone. Someone that I loved and held dear… Someone that I never want to forget.
“Could you let me kiss you again? For the last time? Let me feel like it was before?” He agreed… I lean in to touch his lips, the feeling was the same… He didn’t felt anything else… It was like back in the past, where every time our lips touches, there was this feeling… A tear stream down his angelic face…
I slipped my tongue into his mouth, tasting every inch… The apple juice that he drank just now still lingered in his mouth. I pulled away and shot a dead glare at him. I wrapped my hands around his waist before we walked away.
“Are you jealous, Mr Choi?” he whispered in my ears as we walked.
“Are you fucking insane? Do you know if I didn’t come in time, what will happen?” He smirked, I know he knows the answer, I didn’t have to explain too clearly.
“A finger up my ass?” he joked but I don’t think it’s funny at all. How can he be so relax? I know that guy from earlier would totally be looking at us. I shove him to the nearest wall.
“More than what you bargain for.” I hissed.
“Mianhae, Minho hyung…” he made a sad puppy face using that innocent tone again. I turned my eyes away. Shit, he knows my weakness too well.
“I’ll send you home.” I take his hand pulled him to the direction of my car.
“Are you angry?” he asked.
“No, I’m not.” I rebut. I’m not angry at him at all for flirting around and almost get himself in deep shit. I’m so okay with it.
“You are… Don’t deny it. It’s all because I look like Lee Taemin and you don’t want someone who look like him go around seducing guys.” I stepped on the brake hard, the car jerked.
“Yes, yes, yes. I don’t like you using Taemin’s face going around seducing guys. Are you happy? And can you cut that long hair of yours? It’s so freaking long that if I see you walking along the street at night, I would thought I just saw a ghost.” I yelled at him with frustration. I just can’t control my emotion when it comes to him. I never lose my cool to my Taeminnie before… What am I thinking? He’s not even Lee Taemin, he’s Shin Taemin.
“What about you? Your hair is long too. If you don’t cut your hair, I won’t cut mine.” He got off the car and walked along the pathway.
“Taeminnie, you hair is getting a little long.” I caress his hair slowly as he was lying on the bed trying to sleep.
“I don’t want to cut.” He whined.
“Why?” I pushed his fringe to the side to see his eyes.
“Because I want my hair to be just like hyung.” I felt my own hair, indeed… It was getting long…
“Alright, we will go to the barber together tomorrow.” I ruffled his hair and give him a goodnight kiss.
I followed him in my car, only to drive away when I saw him disappearing into the lift.
“Key hyung… Can you… Help me to cut my hair?” He turned around sneering.
“Oh god, I never thought you would ask. I’ll help you but first I will get my equipment.” That’s the only way he would then cut his hair… I watched my hair falling off from my head, would my hair turned out to be too short? After an hour of cutting he passed me a mirror.
It’s going to be a new beginning.
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I know readers never rushed me for chapters :D
but just that writing is one part of my life that I enjoys doing..
If I don't write, I don't know how to enjoy my day other than watching shinee video :)
A little longer this time due to the fact last chapter has only 1000+
and this time is 1300+ xD
And tissue for everyone~ okay maybe not this chapter...
Another photoshop background set :D
Taeminho + MinKey
Feel free to grab it :D
Okay another thing is, well a new additional member have been added to Caliginous Sky :D
blackprince_85
He's a very nice guy who loves otp minho/jonghyun/onew
and doesn't really write often >.<
so if he post one (idk if he would do it soon...)
please give him some comment :D
Go to his livejournal for more of his works :D
Pairing: Minho/Taemin
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG 15
Summary: Shin Taemin kept teasiing Minho, making him recall of the past...
In My Room | Previous Chapter | Next Chapter
-Minho POV-
“Is it because of Shin Taemin?” I don’t know if I should hate him for knowing me too well sometimes. I nodded my head.
“I was quite shock when Heechul first introduced to me. Indeed, he looked exactly like Taemin and his name was also Taemin.” So he knows him much earlier than I do? Does that mean he pulled me to the bar that day was all planned? I’m such a fool.
“Not just his name or look hyung… His tone and eyes… Were like how Taemin was before and after the incident. That emotionless look, that innocent voice…” He placed his hands on my shoulder, I felt something wet on my face once again. I rubbed it away and to find myself crying.
Taemin… Taemin… Why did you run across the road? Until now, I don’t even have an answer… Sometime I regret my own action… If I didn’t let you die, would you be in my arms right now? If I never left the house that day, would you still living on your life painfully? If that incident never happened, would we be living to the fullest of our life?
If regret can hurt someone, how many times would I have been dead by now?
I went back to the bar again the next day, he was having his dance performance. I don’t know why again, but tonight he look a little more like Taemin. He wasn’t wearing any make-up, maybe a little foundation and lip gloss. It’s a wife-beater with a sleeveless jacket and skinnies but without any holes.
He came down sweating like yesterday, I passed him his usual drink that Heechul always prepares.
“I thought after last night, you won’t be coming again.” He took a sip of his drink after asking.
“I promised Heechul hyung so I won’t break my promise.” He chortled as if the thing I said was stupid.
“Don’t you know promises are meant to be broken?” His thoughts were always negative, as if in this world there wasn’t anything to be happy about. But his words remind me or someone breaking his promise…
“But do you know you made me more worried acting like that?” He looked down, I wasn’t trying to scold him or what. I just… I just… I… Aishi…
“Promise me, you will tell me everything… Don’t keep it bottled.” He nodded and we both smile, it was real...
That time I caught him cutting himself during Jinki hyung’s birthday. He promised that from that day own he would tell me everything… but it was all lies… He kept cutting his own thighs, nightmares still haunts him but he acted as if he was getting better because of my care and concern…
Was that what Taemin at that time was thinking? Promises are meant to be broken? I clutched the cloth in front of my chest, the pain coming from the heart… I’m feeling it again…
“I’m right, isn’t it?” I know I can never win him, he was witty in talking… I kept quiet not talking to him anymore.
“Sore loser.” He sticks his tongue at me and left the seat. It’s really funny how sometime his action and thoughts were like Taemin and how different they were. Living in two different kind of environment with some alike personality, I think I’m insane to think this way.
I kept my eyes on him, not wanting him to be prey by some lecher around there. He made his way through the crowds and to a table. I saw him grinning ear to ear as he sat down beside a guy. The taller male wrapped his hands around his waist, pulling him closer to him. Taemin, what the hell are you doing? Taemin’s fingers were tracing circles along the other male thighs. Was he whispering things into his ear or just breathing hot air to seduce the older male?
The guy eyes were full of lust, I know he would make a move soon. Wait, did his hand just slipped into his pants? That fucking asshole.
I quickly pushed my way through and to their tables. I yanked him off from the older male making both of them shock.
“Sorry, he’s mine tonight.” One of my hands was around his waist and the other turned cupped his cheek to turn it and look at me. I crashed our lips together, making sure that man had a full view of it.
Seriously speaking, it’s been about two years since I last kissed someone. Someone that I loved and held dear… Someone that I never want to forget.
“Could you let me kiss you again? For the last time? Let me feel like it was before?” He agreed… I lean in to touch his lips, the feeling was the same… He didn’t felt anything else… It was like back in the past, where every time our lips touches, there was this feeling… A tear stream down his angelic face…
I slipped my tongue into his mouth, tasting every inch… The apple juice that he drank just now still lingered in his mouth. I pulled away and shot a dead glare at him. I wrapped my hands around his waist before we walked away.
“Are you jealous, Mr Choi?” he whispered in my ears as we walked.
“Are you fucking insane? Do you know if I didn’t come in time, what will happen?” He smirked, I know he knows the answer, I didn’t have to explain too clearly.
“A finger up my ass?” he joked but I don’t think it’s funny at all. How can he be so relax? I know that guy from earlier would totally be looking at us. I shove him to the nearest wall.
“More than what you bargain for.” I hissed.
“Mianhae, Minho hyung…” he made a sad puppy face using that innocent tone again. I turned my eyes away. Shit, he knows my weakness too well.
“I’ll send you home.” I take his hand pulled him to the direction of my car.
“Are you angry?” he asked.
“No, I’m not.” I rebut. I’m not angry at him at all for flirting around and almost get himself in deep shit. I’m so okay with it.
“You are… Don’t deny it. It’s all because I look like Lee Taemin and you don’t want someone who look like him go around seducing guys.” I stepped on the brake hard, the car jerked.
“Yes, yes, yes. I don’t like you using Taemin’s face going around seducing guys. Are you happy? And can you cut that long hair of yours? It’s so freaking long that if I see you walking along the street at night, I would thought I just saw a ghost.” I yelled at him with frustration. I just can’t control my emotion when it comes to him. I never lose my cool to my Taeminnie before… What am I thinking? He’s not even Lee Taemin, he’s Shin Taemin.
“What about you? Your hair is long too. If you don’t cut your hair, I won’t cut mine.” He got off the car and walked along the pathway.
“Taeminnie, you hair is getting a little long.” I caress his hair slowly as he was lying on the bed trying to sleep.
“I don’t want to cut.” He whined.
“Why?” I pushed his fringe to the side to see his eyes.
“Because I want my hair to be just like hyung.” I felt my own hair, indeed… It was getting long…
“Alright, we will go to the barber together tomorrow.” I ruffled his hair and give him a goodnight kiss.
I followed him in my car, only to drive away when I saw him disappearing into the lift.
“Key hyung… Can you… Help me to cut my hair?” He turned around sneering.
“Oh god, I never thought you would ask. I’ll help you but first I will get my equipment.” That’s the only way he would then cut his hair… I watched my hair falling off from my head, would my hair turned out to be too short? After an hour of cutting he passed me a mirror.
It’s going to be a new beginning.
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I know readers never rushed me for chapters :D
but just that writing is one part of my life that I enjoys doing..
If I don't write, I don't know how to enjoy my day other than watching shinee video :)
A little longer this time due to the fact last chapter has only 1000+
and this time is 1300+ xD
And tissue for everyone~ okay maybe not this chapter...
Another photoshop background set :D
Taeminho + MinKey
Feel free to grab it :D
Okay another thing is, well a new additional member have been added to Caliginous Sky :D
blackprince_85
He's a very nice guy who loves otp minho/jonghyun/onew
and doesn't really write often >.<
so if he post one (idk if he would do it soon...)
please give him some comment :D
Go to his livejournal for more of his works :D