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doubts
Hit with a wall of self doubts today. Planning - can I really do all I want to do next year? And when I see Rebecca Hamilton's posts about writers wanting it all now and not planning it out and...it just makes me feel like I'll never be good enough. Which I know is bullshit and yet ( Read more... ) -
Because I doubted...
Because I lost faith. Because my trust became important to me...and I felt betrayed...you, the betrayer, are cutting me loose ( Read more... ) -
I dreamed...
The last four nights, I have dreamed. Things were different, you weren't hiding, we both spoke our minds without fear. Unfortunately, I don't remember, completely, those dreams ( Read more... ) -
Restless and Unsure
Tough night last night, when a single glass of wine takes me down...my dreams were disjointed and jarring, always making me believe I was in the wrong place at the wrong time ( Read more... ) -
Dream - Dennis?
Weird dream this morning of Dennis, of all people - must have been the photo I saw of him online yesterday, back when he was in his dancing prime ( Read more... ) -
Fuck it...
Sometimes, fate intervenes.
And tells you, Fuck it.
Who am I to disagree? -
The don'ts take care of me.
Don't play the music that makes you sad ( Read more... ) -
Still unsettled.
And that totally sucks. Tomorrow I shall be writing with Deb, so at least I won't be bemoaning the loss ( Read more... ) -
Again?
My old boss (whose name is Tom, ironically) slid around in my dreams last night. Taunting me about the relationship we never had. Threatening to punish me for spilling his secrets to people I - well I've blogged about that ( Read more... )