Still unsettled.
And that totally sucks. Tomorrow I shall be writing with Deb, so at least I won't be bemoaning the loss...
...and it is a loss that cuts deep. Gods. I had no idea.
I know the 24 year old Dom puppy near me wouldn't - GODS wouldn't - truly be what I need. So I cut him loose and he's okay about it, though sad. (though having him say my sweaty moving pic was me looking "beautifuL"? yeah, a fun memory, ha.)
I'm lost. I don't know how to put myself on an even keel anymore.
...and it is a loss that cuts deep. Gods. I had no idea.
I know the 24 year old Dom puppy near me wouldn't - GODS wouldn't - truly be what I need. So I cut him loose and he's okay about it, though sad. (though having him say my sweaty moving pic was me looking "beautifuL"? yeah, a fun memory, ha.)
I'm lost. I don't know how to put myself on an even keel anymore.