Since I know I won't be updating on Christmas day I should say Merry Christmas now. Even thouhg I'll probably update tomorrow. So anyways, right now I' sitting in my class at CTC. Uh... I have 3 freakin tests today! Gr! I tried painting my nails... oh God, that didn't turn out to well. Billy laughed at me. I can't wait to see what he got me for ( Read more... )

I wish so badly that I was emotionless right now. I feel like I've miss out on a lot when I'm not "being bad." But I'm trying to be as good as I can. Next year I'll be a senior, and what other chances do I have to be recognized other than then. So, it's time for a change. I love Billy and all, but he's really pulling me down right now. And today, I ( Read more... )

I don't know what's going ok... Billy keeps saying I'm annoying and he was always saying that he broke up with Annie because she got annoying but he says he loves me. I'm sure he said that to her too though. I don't know what to do. I mean, I really do love him, he means the world to me. And it's not like I'd ever cheat on him... ever... and if you ( Read more... )

I think that, "distance makes the heart grow fonder" is the quote I remember most coming from Jon. Now that we're talking again, it makes me so happy. I mean, now I know that he's alive and ok, and some-what safe... barely happy but hell, that's nothing new. One day I know I'll see him happy though. He's dating someone from Sandy Cove now. I think ( Read more... )

Yep, I'm sick... I hurled twice... yummy, haha! Anyways, as usual Billy was checking up on me and taking care of me. But after yesterday I'm still kinda disappointed in him. Yet I love him dearly so there's no point in even thinking about it. I emailed Jon... I guess I just want to make sure he's ok. I wish he knew how to fix his life... it's ( Read more... )

Have you ever had someone lie to you after they cussed you out for lying to them?! Billy made me fucking cry my eyes out thinking I'm such a bad person... but he's been doing shit behind my back all the time!! I feel so fucking worthless... I mean, all I do is work hard to get my grades up so I can be a good daughter... and I work even harder to be ( Read more... )

You have no idea how much I hate being here right now. These people are so stupid. I've done nothing wrong... I've seriously done everything they told me to and they won't let me do what I want. AND they expect me not to have an attitude! All I want to do is go to Frederick with Billy. It's just as safe riding with him as it is riding with them ( Read more... )

We don't have school today!! yay!! I'm online again too! I got yelled at for it though. Right now, I'm sitting here listening to Alison Krauss, Forget About It. Last year at Sandy Cove... when I met Jon, I sang this song... well, I know I became obsessed with the internet because of my infatuation with him... now that I've let him go... maybe it's ( Read more... )

Well, everything's going ok now... I don't have too much to copmlain about. Billy's being himself... I love him to death for that! lol. I've made myself a new friend who probably should've been a friend along time ago but I'm stubborn, lol. Yea, now I just can't wait until we all get to go out on a double date. I think we might be on Friday. I ( Read more... )

Ok... on Saturday, I had my party. OMG, it was so funny! At first it sucked cuz Billy was all mad and someone pissed me off then when I said something about it they started crying, and then I felt bad, until they decided to leave and not come back... (inside info: this person was a family member who ditched me for a someone who says an awful lot of ( Read more... )