and stay healthy. god knows i am going to have to work until i die. so:

my day has been constisting of:
1 glass of hot water with lemon 1st thing in the morning.
1 diet coke per day at the most.
20 grams of less of carbs. some protien and higher fat.

5lbs down in a week and i am sleeping better. all skin irritations have gone away. i think more ( Read more... )

... and Cambria but i love this. from their newest,  "the color before the sun"

still think of moving on everyday. but i am still stuck. the mini's- and my newest little man keep me going.

https://youtu.be/gf106IGqOQ8

unbelievable.

i am still floored. furious.

apparently i am disowned. and i am 100% okay with that.

2 days ago:

i post a meme on good old FB. had to tag someone my biological brother is on the outs with (not my place to tell their story) because she happened to be pictured in it.
he replied with a snide, injured comment which i chose to ignore.
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...for some reason take up more space in my head than they need to. the only females that take up that much room are the GB (including the grand mini) and Amy. She's the sister i wished for all my life. then there is my newest little man. who will take precedence above all others, no question.

back to the grown men.

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it's the only acceptable word for me right now.

overemotional and almost missed the birth of another grandbaby. feeling like i need to look into other career choices. i love my job, don't get me wrong. and i am damn good at it considering the area i am required to try to find GOOD, long term help. : sigh: ya have to at least "sort of give a fuck". ( Read more... )

i am extremely disappointed in all of humanity right now. and i can't get over it  frustrated to the point of tears and i have to get up in 2 hours  awesome.

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this has been a strange day. sundays usually are. i spend most of my day on my own. running errands, doing chores i just don't have time to deal with. trying to figure out where i have time to hang with the littlest mini. she may not directly belong to me, but she may as well. the lump i get in my throat when i look at her speaks volumes to that.

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so much information dropped in my lap today that will not be remembered by the informer. but the truth comes out. it always does. and again...i am left holding the bag, responsibility for the decisions that affect everyone's worlds and all i know how to do is put my head down and get back to work.