Yeah. I wish I would fall asleep and not wake up. Let's all hope.

Hmm, let's see.

I'm doing...okay, I guess. I'm dealing with a lot of shit (related to the last two weeks), but I'm doing the best I can.

I'm going to my therapist/counselor/whatever. I'm in a 12-step group.

I'm trying to spend a lot of time distracting myself.

Couple nights a week at the bar, a lot of time doped up on sleeping pills.
It's been ( Read more... )

So, I finally got ahold of him on ... Thursday? I think. We talked. I laid it all out there. He said he didn't want to try again. So, I tld him I accepted that and that if he ever changed his mind, to give me a call, because odds are I'll always love him.
So, yeah. It's over. Because you know what? I doubt he'll ever be like.."Shit, I lost ( Read more... )

So, about all this stuff...

I'm making myself crazy. I know there's no sure answer and no sure thing. So why can't I stop trying to figure out what the right thing is?

I'm just...drained. And at a loss.

So, if you're sick of reading my relationship bitching, all you need to know is: Monday afternoon, I was mauled by my iguana. It was fucking nasty. I kinda thought I needed stitches (left index finger), but it's healing up okay. NOW ON TO THE BITCHING!
So, I broke up with him. I was like, "I can't take anymore" and I told him to bring me my stuff ( Read more... )

So, I'm single.

Weird. First time I've really considered myself single in almost 2 and a half years.

Hopefully, no matter what happens, it'll all end up the way it's supposed to.

My boyfriend's heading to Eastern Michigan University this Wednesday. Anyone want to go spy on him for me? I know some of you have to be living in the area. I'll pay you good money.

Ahem. E-mail me. :D
So, yeah. I still always get nervous when he goes out of town. If he ever cheats on me again,I'm going to kill at least 2 people. Him and the ( Read more... )

So, this was Wednesday, and I'm at the Planned Parenthood clinic. No, nothing exciting, just my usual Depo shot. For the uninitiated, the type of people you'd expect to see at Planned Parenthood are exactly the type of people you see at Planned Parenthood. It's a lot like a Klan rally that way.
So, I'm sitting there waiting for my appointment, and ( Read more... )

Man to man,
Tell me the truth, tell me
Were you ever there when she needed you?
Man to man,
Look me in the eye, tell me
If you really loved her
Why'd you make her cry?
Man to man,
Who cheated who?
You're the one to blame,
Tell me it ain't true.

Oh, I'm sorry, do I LOOK like I need this right now? Yeah, that's what I thought. Fuck most people.
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Two issues:

1 - My damn expensive digital camera is being a butthole and won't work. I'm going to try calling their tech support number tomorrow.
2 - My tattoo? I'm a little worried about it. It hasn't really started healing, it doesn't seem. No "onion peel", and it -looks- like there might be deep gouges in it, where it -might- have been ( Read more... )