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I did it again! And only like an hour later! I started binging and then had to threw it all out again! Y do i do it! And im not even going to the gym tonight!! Iv written up my weeks plan of food for next week. Starting tomorro. Control is vital! I HAVE to do this! Its hurting me soo badly. Y cant i be in ( Read more... )

So iv just done my exam and im not feeling well. I havnt eaten much today. Only an apple and two rice cakes. I thik i feel ill bcoz of the laxatives i took last night bcoz of my binge. But at least its preventing me from eating now!! Ill swim later aswel to burn off extra calories... I feel i shud run to... mayeb if i feel better i will.

Hasn't been a agreat day so far! I started binging on cake....and then threw it all up again. So now I just feel drained! And I hav an exam later...so im really stressed! Great! I just hope the rest of the day goes better!

Im so FUCKING pissed off.... I am such a failure. I want to die. I binged. I fucking binged on day 3. And why...coz there was a nice looking piece of flapjack. How much fat and calories is in one piece.....im the worst thing alive. Im going to take laxatives tonight..and then tomorro im fasting. I need to get it into my thick head that when i binge ( Read more... )

Completed day 2! Wahoo! I'm so surprised! There was an amazing looking chocolate cake at home and iv resisted!! Im soo pleased! However I think my supper was a bit big..as I feel too full. But iv also felt bloated all day which sucks! But hopefully that will pass..and I can look thin and gorgeous! Im going to brush my teeth in a minute to tell my ( Read more... )

I completed the first day of my new diet. I didn't binge...and  I ate what I had written on my chart. I felt good...and not hungry. Ok im eating less than a normaly person would...and im still being controlling over the amount of calories in eat meal..coz theres no way id want to go near 1000 for a day. But i do 2 hours of exercise a day to make ( Read more... )

So I did my race...and came 4th! Wahoo! Im so pleased! But im so tired...and I hav an exam tomorro which sucks! Tomoro the proper eating plan starts so im going to follow that. Its important and i promised Karly. And I can look forward to buying bikinis in France wen we go over for some shopping!

So...I have my 5km race today. I havnt eaten anything yet...but im not going to loose control. Today will be good and im going to be happy by the end of it. I will eat fruit beforehand so I have energy...and then a light lunch and dinner afterwards. I will be strong!

I was just sick. And i told myself that yesterday was the last time. Today really is the last time..and im starting the new diet tomoz which means i wont ever binge. Supposedly. Part of my is so optomistic and excited that im giong to do this new diet and that if i follow it i can loose weight and look good. But part of me just thinks...theres no ( Read more... )

So...Ok...Today has been a bingeing day. But tomorro starts fresh and new eating habits. Karly sed she was going to help me so im gonna do this. Im going to follow the eating plan...and i hav to do it for a WHOLE week for once! And if its successful i shud loose weight. I cant fast and i cant binge. I need this to work. I hope tomoro is a good day ( Read more... )