i'll start with something i wrote a while ago....

[britty_gotback]

...then at night, when i'm all alone, thoughts of loneliness and honesty and fate come sneaking up on me. i'll sit and i'll think and i'll think to repeat and the sounds and the fears swallow me whole. when i look and i speak and i think to repeat, i feel safe and calm and one. but tonight, when i'm all alone, no thoughts control my mind but

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[wendydarling]

I don't see how you could think that I'd be scared off. This is going to sound really cheesy, but right now I have so much respect for you, and what you just did. You just spilled your heart out and set it on a platform, and you don't care what people say. I always hold you with such high regard - I always go, "wow, Brittany's got so much courage, and inner strength, I wish I could hold myself the way she does." ..and you know.. Even though sometimes, I know when you have a lot on your mind, and somethings up, I still think you have a lot of courage. I wish I could offer you more than just support in certain things, but I can't. In a way, I don't really mind all that much, because I know you get it from other places - like Travis. You always get scared that you talk about him too much with me, or something like that. I always tell you that you don't, but sometimes I don't think you believe me. I love hearing you talk about Travis. Even if it's a repeat of things said before - I just sit there and smile, and go, "aw.." and release my

[britty_gotback]

ew, ******. very ew. can we stop with the crying? wanna know the reason why i get so paranoid and think everyone wants to be your best friend? because i still can't believe you picked me. -shakes head- you're the most beautiful person in the world and you drive me crazy sometimes because you don't see it. i love listening to you talk about orlando. there's noone in the world i would rather get extremely girly with. i know we both tried to fight it, but we must embrace the chick in us and as kate for tips on how to be girlier in 10 days. heh get it? i refuse to go see the movie Troy, because it will forever be known as the movie that stole a part of my heart away and took it to tokyo. or london, whatever. i could write a novel on you and how much you've influenced me as a person and still need to write 2 sequels to include how much i love and respect you as a person. so can you see now why i get so scared? why i freak out when you start making new friends. i'll steal the hair of the person who takes my place. i lvoe you more, contessa

[wendydarling]

*laughs* No way, ******, boogers forever! And you have no reason to ever fear. Ever. I didn't even pick you, to be perfectly honest. To be even more so.. I even tried to fight it. I didn't like it, how easily and quickly you could call me out and be right. How you could see right through me, and bring up crap that I didn't want to talk about - or let be seen. You're too much like me, for me to have felt safe with. I always feel like.. even just talking to me, you always are able to see through me, and call me on things. That scared me. So I .. didn't want to be your friend. I even tried to dislike you. You wormed your ass into my feelings, and thoughts, though, and eventually.. okay, so it didn't exactly take that long, but you wiggled like the ltitle sperm you were into my heart. *laughs* Sorry, had to. I was writing wiggled, and I thought about our talk about Look Who's Talking the other day which lead me to th.. yeah, anyway. I still don't see myself through the eyes of you, I just.. I know that you lvoe me, and that's good enough

[wendydarling]

And yeah, I know I spelled irrationally wrong. shuddap, woman.

[lil_steve_t]

i love you miss bwitty ... even iff you no my guwlfwen you iss siww my fwen an i love you fowevw *blows kisses*

[britty_gotback]

thanks alot, stevie. that means alot to me. i'm glad you're my friend! -catches kisses, puts them in a jar for safe keeping-

[simply_kate]

you know that I am not good with putting things into words. especially when its for the whole world to see, but knowing that you consider me to be one of your dearest friends, makes me so proud.....I cant help but stop and say a little something to you.

you are one of the best people i know. I love you, I love that you feel comfortable to show me who you really are. So your complicated? who cares. You are beautiful and amaze me more everyday that you share with me another piece of your life.

I have no expectations from you, I ask you for no more than you can give. I trust that you know, that no matter when you need me I am here. Without questions, without judgments. Just to support you.

I meant everything I said to you earlier on the phone...I dont know what Id do without you, just remember its okay to let us be as good as a friend to you as you are to us

[britty_gotback]

i told you not to make me cry. i swear you and liv just know how easy it is and do it on purpose. -laughs- anyway, you're here right now while i'm replying to this so i can't think of anything to say that i haven't said to you already. schnoogle doogle poogle loo. -grins- i haven't said that yet. i lvoe you Mixie? is that what it was. -laughs- we're both horrible at remembering.

love,

dutchess

[britty_gotback]

p.s. i edited the post with another song.

[ana_stacia]

I'm so proud of you. You truly are an amazing woman because you know who you are and what you're all about. You don't need to pretend (to those that matter) or hide what's going on. I'm not gonna write this long cheesy thing (for once) because we haven't talked much and it's unfair, HOWEVER, I will tell you, how freakin proud of you I am because you know where you stand in the world, and that's a rare thing. You've learned from all life has thrown at you and you stay positive, that's what I live for. You're beautiful inside and out, always remember what really matters.

[britty_gotback]

ew ew ew. i hate you. you're the 3rd person that's made me cry. do you know how much that means to me? i respect you as much as i respect my own mother and it moves me that you are proud of me. thank you so much for your words, anastacia.

[jpsjj]

Theres no way you'd ever lose me as a friend. I love my little sister too much to desert her. Just the thought of picking a side thats not yours and walking away from someone who is a great of a friend as you are makes my heart tighten up and i get all these weird butterfly things. And you can't ever leave me either. Family is forever and yes. You can't leave me. I need you to watch my back if i say something stupid and i need you to cook me food because Liv can't cook :P and i need you to hug me when i'm feeling sad or bored. Got it?

[britty_gotback]

-laughs- of course i'll hug you forever. sister hugs are the best. there's no doubt that you're the original italian stalion and noone can compete with the skinny fat one. you just wait and see what happens to the first person that messes with you.

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[jpsjj]

cat fight?