There is too much drama going on right now. Seriously, it needs to stop. I FINALLY make steps to let go of something so strong in my life, and this was definitely not something easy to do, then this is put on my doorstep. Having to be compared to one that you were already replaced by is not something easily taken. I already had, and still have ( Read more... )

I've heard it all before. My naivete, ignorance, weakness. Whether within constructive criticism or blunt insult, I've heard it all before. But I don't need to hear it. I know when I have been blinded in my life. I know when I have chosen not to question those I care about, to be blind by my feelings towards them and ignore any doubt in them ( Read more... )

As much as I miss what we had, I miss who I was even more. In a lot of ways I grew, I learned, I can only gain from this experience. In a lot of ways you made me a better person and I'll never forget that. I pray I won't repeat my mistakes, I apologize for any hurt I have caused, I hope to be a better person to someone else. A year has gone by and ( Read more... )

As Lebanon is struck by the terrorist know as Israel, the world sits back in silence. As the UN calls on a cease fire, the US calmly vetoes it. And as over 350 INNOCENT civilians die in the night, thousands of more in the country and around the world cry for their loved ones, their country, and humanity to return to them. Please pray for Lebanon ( Read more... )

This world is so small its crazy. The fact that the circle gets bigger and comes back to me really irrates me. I wish I could just break away, because as long as I stay in this fanatic ungodly social structure I'm just going to go insane. Such moral decay and the unveiling of true character, so grotesque in that light. I want to hide, shield my ( Read more... )

Things would be a lot better.

If only my courage equaled my desires.

Three day weekends are the best...especially when they aren't in San Luis!!! I had one of the best weekends ever thanks to some awesome friends and their crazy minds, even crazier personality and actions! I love being refreshingly odd. Great memories that I will take to heart and I REFUSE to let ANYTHING go to my head! No dwelling! YAY! SO ( Read more... )

Good lord it has been one HELL of a weekend! Right after finishing summer school on Thursday, I had to start packing and cleaning. Friday night was pretty much getting the new house ready. Saturday was Santa Barbara, cleaning, and packing. Sunday was finding a roomie, packing, and cleaning. Whew. And I am not even done yet. I still have to ( Read more... )

It has become obvious to me that only strong people are remembered. Those who are weak are easily forgotten, no matter the depth of the relationship or how long you knew someone them. It's as if they fall into a backdrop, lost in the brightness of the strong glows. I wish I could leave imprints on people's lives...at least in a good way ( Read more... )

Sometimes I really wish I had magic powers to make all the bad things go away. Not for me, but for my good friends. The world is messed up with the fact that bad things happen to good people...really good people...awesome people who are the most caring considerate individuals I have ever known. I wish I could help them, make it all better, make ( Read more... )