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When it gets bad...
I get upset, i want to say so much..mostly because i am being pushed away, it is so frustating when you lose control...its saddening and makes me feel like i just want to force you to speak to me, why the fuck does it have to be this way! give it time and ill have moved on and not feel the need..i just get this way because i ( Read more... ) -
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i am alone...right now..in this place..and in my head.
if i had beer, id drink it. id drink it to fog up my brain and clear these thoughts and feelings.
so its a night i dont want to feel feelings, i am so hurt and angry right now that i hate this feeling, ive always coped with alcohol in the past with previous endings of relationships.
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Why couldn't that one day you're available for friends have been the one day you could have spent with me instead..of getting so fucking pissed off and running to your mother.
mommas boy.
mommas boy mommas boy, always going to be stuck with that.
all i replay in my head is you yelling at me about spending 20 dollars a day..which isnt much but ( Read more... ) -
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Made it through another day, more angry than yesterday, last night was the first night I did not cry myself to sleep, I feel like crying today..but I'm trying my hardest not to, i've cried enough, I don't think tears are going to help me anymore, i just need to let these angry, and sad feelings go, and try to focus on being happy, its hard being ( Read more... ) -
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I love you with all of my being.
I feel it in my gut, I. Think about it in my head, my heart hurts.
I never wanted it to be this way.
Why did everything turn so badly, the things you saw good in me quickly turned so bad.
I don't know what its going to take to fix this
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i would be lying if i said everything is okay.
im hurting, my stomach aches and there is nothing i can do about it.
im alone, and im sad, just one night and im
so confused and wondering what the fuck im going to do
im sorry it ended this way
i never believed leaving was an option you took, unless you meant it.
sadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadfuckingSAD.
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On a night like this the past me would probably walk to the nearest beer joint, or liqour store, get a bottle and call it a fucking day.
Fuck feeling feelings, who wants to feel this way anyway?
But what I am seeing proof in myself is change.
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ive changed so much..i believe for the better....why is there so much anger and sadness in my life.
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in love i fall hard, it hits me so hard it hurts.
I get lost.
sometimes I cant find my way, is anything ever mutual?
its a battle, my way or your way..no compromisng here.
i put on a smile, and try to be the good person you want me to be.
i am lost.
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it's a lonely road to recovery.
as i reach out to my friends, and get much of no response...a good friend of mine answered a question i hadnt even asked...
"the reason why i dont see much of you is because i know youre getting sober and i am using and dont want that to effect your sobriety."
i understand, even if it makes me sad about the choice ive mad about getting clean, i ( Read more... )