Well, I just finished cleaning out my coat pockets... I guess I got tired of being in a mild panic that something had fallen out them. Everytime I had occasion to send my hands in my pockets,I would always think, "man, I can't loose any of that stuff in my pockets, it's important" and then stuff stuff back in the pocket, you know, deep down, to be ( Read more... )

The guy who has his guitar lesson after me is named Robert. Throughout my life I have sort of played a game where I will make it a point to remember some distant person's name. The kind of person I might see every week, but really have no relation to at all. When I see them I like to act like we are old friends... It always takes the other person ( Read more... )

Amazing that it is the same date, and yet not amazing. I guess my biggest gripe with the Christmas shin-dig is that it specifies Christmas.. can't they call it "Holiday Luncheon"? , it is that, and the propensity for people to be fake ( Read more... )

I have calls to return, but I don't want to make them. I decide I had better do the dishes from lunch, and I am reminded that I didn't finish everything. I think to throw the leftovers away in the trash can, but know I should take it outside in case the guilt comes back to me, or the smell builds up. Outside is warm and lovely, with a vivid orange ( Read more... )

Maybe it is all the heat of summer, but man do I love the onset of autumn. Something about the smell of the air that creates a special mix of nostalgia and anticipation... kind of like the new year, but less disappointing ( Read more... )

It is one of those grey overcast days that might turn out sunny, but just as well not. I don't really mind though, because I am coming into work early today, yes, early. Really it is just another lovely day in the Raleigh/Cary area. People are safe and considerate, after work they go home and watch t.v., after sleep they go to work. Most bars are ( Read more... )

I am here at work, and it is now late, practically 10:09 a.m. and this is late to me because I usually come to work at 6:30 a.m. and I have found how much I greatly miss doing that. Today I was trying the late schedule and so I came to work at 9:15 ... what I miss about the 6:30 schedule is the free coffee, and the good feeling I get of watching ( Read more... )

Sometimes I catch myself at moments staring at grass, or at the shallow edge of a lake, and remembering what these things meant to me when I was much younger. Something about the smell of falling on grass, or that first fishing trip, that does not tend to leave us ( Read more... )

There is a lake near where I live, and I go walking there everyday. It is a man made lake built in the 1950s by military reservists, probably because they finally got tired of feeling useless. I don't know. Yesterday, I happened to leave later, so it was reaching dusk by the time I was half way. I happened upon a lady, her two children, and their ( Read more... )

I am scared of bugs. It is true. Actually, it is mostly bugs I have not seen before. Still, I am terrified of them. What is worse, is that I am sentimental, so I have trouble killing them. What is still worse, is that if I do squash them I imagine their little, tiny, invisible to me, eggs spewing everywhere, only to hatch in 6-12 months(this is a ( Read more... )