Life is incredibly entertaining ( Read more... )

The coincidences are too many. The timing is too perfect. Even the people are too characteristic. Yes, I am definitely living in a novel.

Confuzius sez:
Could it be that what you call the Devil is merely God in imp's clothing?

It's a shame. I have too many scruples to be really depraved, but not enough to be really virtuous. Banned from the moral high road but hesitant to baptise myself in the sea of lewd possibility, I subside in this kind of twilit hinterland, secretly disloyal to my responsibilities, but without the courage or guile to throw them away once and for all ( Read more... )

I've taken this before, but when I saw it in _rck_'s journal I thought I'd take it again; and as usual, it is stunningly, like, frighteningly accurate. It's kind of reassuring when computer-generated quiz results confirm one's intuition.
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Well, that was an interesting night.

I just threw a big gob of shit at the fan. Have yet to see where it splatters, but it's gonna be nuclear. Jackson Pollack-like.

The question is, do I take this opportunity and run with it? Do I dare mount the brutal honesty required, or will I just fall uncomfortably into a pattern of lies and evasions or, worse, ( Read more... )

I've always had a vivid imagination. To put it more bluntly, I kind of live in my own little fantasy world. But sometimes I drop out of the clouds and look around at my objective life, and then I'm like, "FUCK, this is lonely and boring." Then I go back up. The end.

The past few days -- actually after reading this article -- I've been trying to ( Read more... )

Something I realized last night: Most, if not all, instances of immoral, illegal and unethical behavior in humans stem from the fallacy that one person (usually oneself, or one's friend or family member) is more important than another.

Examples are probably unnecessary, but I'll provide a couple anyway:
"I am stealing your money because my financial ( Read more... )

So last night, John got incredibly fed up with Maggie's behavior and ended up hollering at her, in rather shocking language, for about 10 minutes on the porch (and he's got a loud-ass voice). Then earlier this evening he and the landlady's crackhead son were arguing, in the street, about money issues (and though D____ isn't that loud, when he's ( Read more... )

There have been times, particularly when I've had a very difficult, painful or irreversible decision to make, that I've longed to know with certainty the will of God. With anxiety, social pressure, ulterior motives, irrational beliefs, second thoughts, third thoughts, fourth thoughts crowding my mind, I thought I'd have given anything to catch a ( Read more... )

There are days when anxiety is not only rampant, but well-founded; when I catch more than a passing glance at where my world is and where it's heading and it scares the bejesus out of me. Predatory pricing! Urban decay! Overpriced health care only for those who don't need it! Enormous landfills out there somewhere and never going away! Peak oil! A ( Read more... )