My mom told me I needed to find something that makes me happy. Well I did. He's leaving for college soon.

I wish I didn't go for the impossible ones.

I really don't want to be alone next year. He won't be here to scare me, guide me, motivate me, or push me. I'll miss that everyday.

I may never have to courage to love nor *like* anyone with as great of a passion, sense of willfulness, patience, or amount of envy that I do now ever again. It hurts me far too much in too many ways.

-> I wish I had never started =/

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Well.. the ball was fun. I danced.. i sang.. i got awards.. what ever

I did a stupid thing.

When the first slow song came on, Jocyne looked at me and was like "Go dance with Chris."  And then I looked at Heaven ( who was sitting right next to me) and I saw the look on her face, I realized she had the same exact look on her face as i did mine, but ( Read more... )

Yep.. today is military ball.

Well to clear this up i'm not updating on the other journal for a while.. atleast untill a certain some one gets to read it.

GOING TO THE BALL.. x3

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Alright.. i just got done deleting all of my old entries form this journal.. I think i'm going to make this one friends only and the other one leave as is. Yes.. that is what I am going to do ( Read more... )

(finger by nose)... and thats the way the cookie cwumbles!!