I don't know about you all... but lately things just seem so frustrating... i can never make my mother happy... and the thing is i don't want to turn into her... I've been drinking a lot with josh.... and now him and i are complicated and i don't think i can trust him... and i doubt i am going to make it in boot camp...

My mom drinks so much, its ( Read more... )

     I love you, I love you, I love you; shall I say it a thousand more times. For I could not bare to stop. Oh how I love you and for more, I pray, to come... that I may see you once more. To lay thy head upon your breast that I might rest  forever. I love you my sweet... my darling love so precious to comfort thy will, to be so generous so gentle ( Read more... )

I have five days left... and I'm getting really nervous... not only that, but because of being off of work for a long time has made me think alot... I miss alot of things... i have alot of things to atone for though.... i regret alot of things i wish i could talk about them...  i still miss josh... i want more than anything to be with him but at ( Read more... )

he wont answer my questions. wont realize the truth, i know he knows im right... and im having a hard time letting that go...

I miss you, I guess I'll just start off  there...

Your words hurt.. and I cry so often. You don't want to be with me, You think we will never be together again.... I wish I could believe that... just because it seems so simple, "I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH YOU!!!" *Heh...* I don't know how you can say that.... you were with me for three years and yet, it ( Read more... )

i want to die

Well if no one else knows, I am now single. which i hate.  More than anything i just want to be with him.  He says he love me but he doesnt want to be with me. He doesnt want to put energy into something he doesnt believe will work. so he's forcing me to face the truth. he said its not worth it.

i want to be more than just a friend. so i dont know ( Read more... )

josh and i got got into a big fight over him and jennifer... on how i am not comfortable with him hanging out with the girl he went on a date with. and the girl that HE asked out... im not happy with it at all. and then just a few minutes after we made up he decides to tell me that, just after jen and john started dating, he asked her if she ever ( Read more... )

Sometimes i wish that i could just get away from this. why is love so irritating, why is that that when it is gone u wish it was close... but when it is close u wish u were further away from it.. well thats how i feel.. i cant understand josh, and josh will never understand me.. tonight he is off to a girl that he dated in the past... do u know how ( Read more... )

it is irritating, once again josh seems to fail me. I don't know what it is... i mean i know I'm jealous... but man he is inconsiderate.. i mean i don't want him hanging out with Jennifer in the first place. why because shes fake. or its cause he dated her in the past.