catch-up

Feb 10, 2015 08:57

I've been trying to write this post for a few days and I keep abandoning it, which is probably because:

I'm depressed. )

my crazy, headstuff

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jake67jake February 10 2015, 23:09:46 UTC
Most meds don't affect your grieving process... So, I would vote for meds and a fight.

You *may* need the therapy for the grief, also.

I've been fighting a particularly bad January, but I recognized it, went to the doc (actually for a sinus infection, but said, "while I'm here... ") and upped my script a bit. Has made a shit-ton of difference.

*hugs*

Hang in there.

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blueraccoon February 11 2015, 15:44:09 UTC
I will be seeing my therapist at some point, so hopefully we can work on this. I'm not sure I want to adjust my meds just yet, though; the cocktail I've got is working fairly well for me, or has been until now.

I'm glad the new scrip is working for you!

*hugs* I'm trying.

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jake67jake February 11 2015, 15:49:39 UTC
Yeah, something I didn't consider is upsetting the cocktail and making your head worse than it already is.

My next step for the doctor is to discuss why, after being stable for YEARS (stable meaning... a certain progression of treatment sometimes ending with me writhing in bed wishing to die, but *usually* ending with relief), have my migraines reverted back to how they were when I was in high school/college (specifically, throwing up anything and everything--even nothing--in my stomach at 30 minute intervals).

You continue to be in my thoughts.

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nawilla February 10 2015, 23:16:19 UTC
Your mom died. And you already have mental health professionals. Go to them and get help and stop worrying about your grieving process stopping.

It's not going to stop because you are seeking professional treatment for something that really, most people should see a professional for but often don't have the resources to. Your mom died. Expect that to continue to hurt.

The point of going to treatment is to help you cope with the hurt and not be swallowed by it any more severely or longer than necessary. Because while grieving will hurt, depression will make this stage the status quo as opposed to a naturally painful transition.

Your mom wouldn't want you and your loved ones to suffer more to prove your love. She'd want you to be as healthy as you can be, even when it hurts.

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blueraccoon February 11 2015, 15:45:54 UTC
I will be seeing my professionals, I promise. I'm seeing my psych on Tuesday and I'm not sure when I'm seeing the therapist but I will be seeing her at some point.

I'm being told that the "medical model" for grief says that profound grief can last up to three months and look like a depressive episode, beyond that it more often gets classified as actual depression. I know there's no time table for grief, and I know this is going to hurt for a long time, but it does help to know that this may not be a full blown depressive episode, it may just be life happening.

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