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Just in case you missed it, I have changed my account name to bluecrowgirl from this_not_that which was a pest to type and made no sense ( Read more... )

Urgh I feel terrible - I slept most of the night at my desk and I'm knackered and I've got to go to work today.  Quick - strong tea! now! *smokes a few cigarettes*.  This is how hangovers used to feel like before I gave up drinking minus the pounding head. idk....  How did I manage to sleep at my desk you may ask.  Well my tablets pretty much knock ( Read more... )

Back to work today and it was okay actually.  Then tonight I was out at the Zen group and we had a good meeting.  Been trying to catch up with everyone's posts and then realised I hadn't updated my own!  I've been insufferably upbeat all day - hey it's nice for a change not to feel depressed/anxious/paranoid.  Day off tomorrow so maybe I should get ( Read more... )

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I'm beginning to think I'm getting a speech problem.  Lately when I try to say things I start stuttering and getting the grammar mixed up.  When people then start to listen more closely to try to understand me I get more anxious and my speech gets worse.  I don't like the sound of my own voice.  I don't think I ever have.

Oops I had an accident and went on www.lush.co.uk and ordered stuff!  (I'm supposed to be economising).  It's like I'm compelled to spend or something...

Oh well...onwards...

My sister is ending her holiday with us tomorrow morning and I'm going to miss her.  Today she came up to my flat and we had afternoon tea and a natter.  At least she will be ( Read more... )

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Feeling a bit disturbed but I think it's because of taking my medication late this morning.  Today I think I will start reading a book and exercise my imagination!  I always used to enjoy reading but have hardly read anything in the last few years.  Any suggestions?