do you ever have those days where you feel you can only feel comfortable in a mumu? or is it moomoo... either way.. what a weird feeling

i just can seem to sleep anymore. i'm exhausted but my brain is just racing.. all these thoughts just running through my head, i can't stop them. all these uninvited thoughts, the problem is i'm too nice a hostess to kick them out. and i'm really lonely. i miss everyone so much. i've been job hunting and im turning in my applications tommorow, so ( Read more... )

so what the fuck is most guys problems?? holy fuckin shit, i'm so sick of dealing with liars, with boasters, with just plain fuckheads. its ridiculous the lengths guys go to, and i'm just so fucking tired of putting up with it. i'm tired of being a girl. i'm done with people thinking that just cuz others cause a lot of drama, i am not one of them, ( Read more... )

a bat of an eyelash, a twinge in the thigh, a fist to the back of the head. everything changes so fast. i almost fear to blink, because then i know the world will pass by and i'lll have to wait a year's orbit to come back into the moment. i'm flying over rainbow colored lava, my fingertips on fire, my feet trailing behind bent legs. if only your ( Read more... )

this is where life has taken me? shit, i've gone fucking nowhere, and it looks like the road ahead leads to mostly dead ends. something big is coming, i can feel it. i dont know if its good or not, but a change is in the air. i dont know how i know this, but its like how you can tell its about to snow, and everyone else including the weather man ( Read more... )

what the fuck is wrong with me? i feel like im losing my sanity and health at the same time... i cant even sit up straight my stomache hurts so badly, and my head is throbbing with pain and running thoughts... its like i can handle one or the other but to feel like this is truly maddening. objects out of the corner of my eye are shaking.. like ( Read more... )

staring down my eyes fail to see the depths of the water, i cannot see the bottom of this well, nor can i see whats lurks in it. she climbs these walls at night, i see her do it. fingertips pressed firmly into the stones, bleeding fingers slip, but she slowly climbs anyway. each night she wanders around in the dark calling silenty out for help. i ( Read more... )

i've been feeling really disconnected lately. like i'm not working correctly. nothing new, no solution. and yet im surrounded by my friends. i have to make such an effort to stay in the moment. to listen to whats going on around me, cuz otherwise im just in my own world.. i hear nothing but static and white noise, like my brain is stuck in between ( Read more... )

this goes out to all my friends~

i'm sorry i am a pain in the kiester a lot of the time. and i'm speaking specifically about the times when i'm having a panic attack, or am really depressed. i dont know why lately its been really bad, but its becoming a problem i'm dealing with daily. trust me i dont want to be this way.  i don't mean to put a ( Read more... )

well well well. i'm looking forward to a good night's rest.... that will be sedative induced of course... but i've earned it!! these past couple o days have been so... urgh... stressful