secrets slide out of your mouth before you can stop them

[bloodyfairy19]

i just can seem to sleep anymore. i'm exhausted but my brain is just racing.. all these thoughts just running through my head, i can't stop them. all these uninvited thoughts, the problem is i'm too nice a hostess to kick them out. and i'm really lonely. i miss everyone so much. i've been job hunting and im turning in my applications tommorow, so maybe i'll meet some people down here. that would be nice to feel like a real person living here instead of a visitor.. oh, would kill a mexican grandmother for some sedatives right now... even tylenol pm would do the trick. one lil screw up and you're branded forever as a fuckup who overdoses on anything i can get my hands on. i just want to sleeeeeeeeeep. oh please mr. sandman.. please... 
count to ten... damnit