ok i went to a party last Saturday and something really bad happened ( Read more... )

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I havnt wrote in a while....i have been trying to get my life straight....thats not working very well....lol.....I stopped cutting for a while until last weekend...i let people get to me....which sux....I have talked to Aaron alot latley...even though we are broken up we still talk......he tell me how much of a mistake it was leaving me and how ( Read more... )

I wanna die......i want it so bad, more then iv ever wanted anything in my life.I hate this life and i fucking hate this world and ALL the fucking people in it! i want to just cut a little deeper and leave you all, its not like i will be missed by anyone, im tired of not being good enough for anyone and just being a letdown, and im not wanted by ( Read more... )

Im so alone, i feel so unwanted, so cold and so gone......when I was deep in depression b4 i didnt relize i was sinking and this time i do...i see myself slowly fading away, im no longer the girl i once was....this is so scary, i can see myself dying inside and there is nothing i can do to stop it.I have always been a very depressed person but this ( Read more... )

I went and saw the Corpse Bride bye tim burton, it was good but kinda like a wanna-be nightmare b4 christmas.....but its ok......go see it....it was worth the money!
in love and hate,
maddy

Someone old has entered my life again......remember chase macleod?? the one guy that I have always loved even after we broke up....he was my first love...u kno they tend to stay with u a while.....well he came over the other day and seeing him next to me made me remeber everything and now im completley back in love with him.....I love him so much, ( Read more... )

I swear what is it with this world that everyone that you care about and that you think cares about you really couldnt `giv a shitt if your even alive? damn me and aaron broke up and he was cheating on me the whole time with some girl named nichole and he tried his best to get into my bff taylors pants! i swear i finnnaly let someone in and they ( Read more... )

well Tuesday was the first day back at skool....that sucks.I guess it was ok not as bad as it could be.We only have one new kid this year.Im now in the 8th grade.Anyways Aaron really pissed me off yesturday.He got high again after he said he wouldnt this is the 2nd time!And then on top of it all he tryed to lie about it...and that really pissed me ( Read more... )

Things with me and Aaron are really moving along.Even though im young.He said when we get older he wants to marry me...and he is getting me a ring! OMG this could be the one realationship iv been waiting for..I love Aaron more then iv loved anyone before.He treats me right and respects me.And loves me for me.....I hope we actually do get married ( Read more... )